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The one time antidepressants worked for me, I felt normal for the first time since about eight years old. I've spent my whole teenage years and adulthood depressed. It was like the clouds were gone or the sun came up or death stepped away a little farther, and I was strong and safe and ready to do anything. I was so amazed to learn that this was how normal people feel all the time! But the medication started giving me these really bad three-day migraines. So, my taste of paradise? Well, it went away.
I think what has surprised me the most about depression is how easily a good cognitive behavior therapist could help me feel better and different about myself and my life. --cal70
For me, the most surprising thing was the fact that I started second-guessing my decisions and feeling paranoid about things. I am not the most decisive person to begin with, but this is the aspect of depression that drives me the most nuts. I hate wondering if I have made the right decisions in my life, and I hate the fact that when I am feeling depressed I tend to make the wrong decisions, which in turn makes the depression worse. I was also surprised to find that anxiety goes hand in hand with the depression, and that the anxiety attacks were my first clue that depression was there.
I think the things that surprised me the most about depression were, first, how many people suffer from it that you would never guess and never know. Second, how sneaky a disease it is. By sneaky, I mean how it often takes little things away from me that I enjoy until one day I wake up not interested in so many things that make me who I am. Now that I know this, I actually keep a mental list of things to watch out for that will tell me depression might be getting its hold on me again, so I don't wake up one day at the bottom. Little things like quitting wearing earrings to work, one of my passions. It is a signal to me that if it starts happening regularly, I need to evaluate my feelings and see my doctor. --savepaws