The Biggest Loser's Tanya on Week 11: Learning to Be the Best Mom I Can Be

Jillian helps Tanya discovers who she is as a mother — both to herself and her kids

We're back from our fall break and wow, what a cliffhanger! All of the eliminated contestants are together once again for a second chance to return to the ranch. That brief moment during weigh-in felt like a family reunion, but unlike your typical reunion, all the "family members" looked 10 years younger, healthier, and happier. I am proud of the progress they’ve made off the ranch, and it gives me hope that I will be just as successful. I was so happy to see Bobby earn his spot back in the house and I’m sure he will take full advantage of his second chance to be ‘The Biggest Loser.’

As for me, what a week?! I overcame one of my biggest fears this season, which was working out with Jillian. LOL! But, I’m so glad I did. Jillian had me running 10 mph! She also had me do wall squats with her sitting on my lap, burpees, jump ropes, and the infamous stair machine. It was 2 hours of intense training, and guess what? I survived! I wanted to give up several times towards the end of each set, but Jillian refused to let me. She not only pushed me to the finish line, but also had a heartfelt conversation with me regarding why I felt a push was needed from the trainers during my workouts. Jillian helped me realize I was my worst cheerleader when it came to my physical challenges and mindset of feeling inadequate and attitude of being a failure. This negatively affected me during my workouts, and she taught me to learn to celebrate myself and not rely on anyone to cheer me on or root for me. She taught me to be the mother to myself that I never had and the mother I am to my children, who loves them, praises them, celebrates them and supports them. At that moment, I vowed to find victory in all things. Instead of beating myself up for losing 3 pounds, I found victory in losing 10lbs in two weeks and making it to Onederland. Instead of feeling like I've failed by falling below the yellow line, I found victory in knowing that I was relentless, strong, determined and was the "Last Man Standing" with a “save patch” in Week 11. Instead of being offended by some of the contestants for voting me to stay on the ranch because I pose a lesser threat than Tumi, I found victory in the beautiful relationships I've built on the ranch. I’ve learned to celebrate “me” on the ranch, to be a mother to myself, to love me, praise me, celebrate me, and support me. Welcome home Mom!

Read Tanya's Scoop on Weeks 1-10

Week 1 and Her Crush on Dolvett

Week 2 and Losing Her Roommate

Week 3 and Letting Go of Emotional Baggage

Week 4 and Dolvett's Workout Dungeon

Week 5 and The Beat Cancer Boot Camp

Week 6 and Getting Ruben Back

Week 7 and a Life of Thanksgiving

Week 8 and the "Real World"

Week 9 and Her Fast Food Chain

Week 10 and Going it Alone

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The Biggest Loser airs Tuesdays at 8 EST/7 central on NBC

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