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In the '90s, Brandy was the girl who could do everything. But there was one thing that the TV, music and film star couldn't figure out: how to be happy. In her new VH1 Behind the Music special, Brandy (full name: Brandy Norwood) admits for the first time that she was miserable at the height of her fame -- and that her unhappiness manifested itself in an eating disorder.
"People don't understand that being the hottest star or making the most money does not mean anything," says Brandy, now 33. "I'm here to tell you I was making so much money -- I was omnipresent -- and I was the unhappiest teenager probably in the world."
It's hard to believe that an insecure teenager wouldn't get an ego boost from becoming a pop star (she's sold more than 15 million copies of her five studio albums) and an in-demand actress (she starred in the UPN TV series Moesha and the big-screen horror hit I Still Know What You Did Last Summer). But Brandy says that none of her success made her feel better about herself.
"I wanted to be so thin. That was my main thing," she confesses. "So I started not taking care of myself -- not eating properly, not eating at all, diet pills, regurgitating, and all of these things that girls do."
At the same time, Brandy was dealing with her first heartbreak, after her relationship with Boyz II Men's Wanya Morris ended badly in 1997.
"He fell in love with someone else," she recalls. "The worst feeling is to be in love all by yourself. That feels f***ed up, honestly. It just really does. And that's the only way I can really put it. It felt like somebody had just completely taken my heart out of my body and just crushed it."
Poor Brandy! Can we go back in time and give her a hug?
Behind the Music: Brandy premieres on April 25 at 9 p.m. on VH1. Watch a preview below!