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"I've really never talked about this stuff before," Demi Lovato told Access Hollywood's Kit Hoover in the midst of an interview she gave Monday on the set of The X Factor. "I don’t know if I should be sharing this."
The candid interview went beyond Lovato's previous confessions about her struggles with bulimia and cutting. This was a torrent of details about a pretty heavy-duty drug addiction, one that turns out to have been much more severe than most fans imagined. "I couldn't go 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine, and I would bring it on airplanes," Lovato said. "I would smuggle it basically and just wait until everyone in first class would go to sleep, and I would do it right there." Lovato has been clean since 2011.
Though shocking to hear the star tell these stories on the air, this wasn't the first time Lovato has talked about the severity of her issues. These facts (and more) are in her book, Staying Strong: 365 Days a Year, which was released last month. Still, it's hard to listen to her recall the time she took an early-morning flight with a Sprite bottle full of vodka: "I think at 19 years old, I had a moment where I was like, 'Oh my God… that is alcoholic behavior,'" she said. "[It's] no longer, 'I’m young and rebellious and out having fun.' It was, 'Wow, I’m one of those people. … I gotta get my s*** together.'"
Who knew that the confessional documentary Lovato released in 2012 didn't actually cover the depths of her addictions? In that MTV special, Demi Lovato: Stay Strong, she talked about "not eating and purging and self-harming," which led her to dropping out of her tour and entering a treatment center. Watch a clip here:
Lovato's willingness to let people glimpse her darkest hours is a risky move. Potentially, she could be known as "that pop star who was really messed up." On the other hand, maybe that's what she's out for. The heroic act of rebounding from such a harrowing experience can change a person's attitude and sense of purpose. There's no doubt that her all-too-real challenges could warn fans off of drugs, and inspire other addicts to seek help. We're certainly inspired by her bravery.
Jennifer Graham Kizer is an iVillage contributing writer. Follow her on Google+.