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Demi Lovato is having a healthy, successful year so far, but she's still open about the many challenges she faces when it comes to her fame.
The 19-year-old "Give Your Heart a Break" singer -- who's currently on tour in South America -- is detailing the way she succumbed to peer pressure and loneliness, which led to substance use.
"It's something I don't really want to talk about," Lovato tells the U.K.'s Fabulous magazine. "What I can say is that I was depressed. I would come off stage in front of 18,000 people and suddenly be alone in a hotel room. I'd come crashing down and would try to find a way to recreate that feeling, to stay 'up,'" she explained.
Lovato, who spent three months in rehab starting in November 2010, admits that it was ridiculously easy to secure drugs the year preceding her time in the rehab facility.
"Promoters gave me drugs and alcohol in restaurants or clubs," she says. "They wanted me to come back so I would be seen there. They were basically kissing my ass."
When drugs failed to numb the pain of reality, Lovato took to cutting. "It started with my wrists," she says. "People saw that, so I cut in places they couldn't see. You do it because you feel so bad inside. You don't know hot to take it out other than on yourself."
In addition to being treated for self-mutilation, Demi was treated for psychological issues including bipolar disorder, bulimia and depression. She admitted to the magazine that she's thankful her loved ones forced her to go into rehab before her addictions took over her life.
"Being a celebrity can be dangerous," she says. "Nobody says 'no.' That's why so many (stars) end up overdosing and dying. It could definitely have happened to me," she said.
The Sonny with a Chance star recently discussed her battle with depression on her MTV documentary Demi Lovato: Stay Strong, which aired last month.
"I'm not fixed," she admits. "But I continue to work my butt of because now I wanna be a legitimate role model."
We're rooting for you, Demi!