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We've heard so much from Ryan O'Neal over the past week, about how devastated he is over Farrah Fawcett's suffering, but the actress says she's not about to just lay down and die.
"I want to stay alive," the actress says in her documentary, Farrah's Story, airing on Friday. "So I say to God, because it is, after all, in His hands, 'It is seriously time for a miracle.'
"Of all the things I've ever hoped for in my life, finding a doctor to surgically remove my anal cancer did not even make the top one million on my list," she says in the documentary.
It's not that she wants to be invincible -- it's that she doesn't want to be taken down by this poison -- "a disease that is mysterious, headstrong and makes it own rules," Farrah says. "Mine, to date, is incurable."
"I know that everyone will die eventually," she adds, "but I do not want to die of this disease."
Hang on tightly.
Farrah's documentary airs on Friday on NBC at 9 pm ET.