overwhelmed by all my symptoms :(
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|Tue, 08-06-2013 - 1:40pm|
I'm looking for help, an ear, a should to cry on I guess. I'v done the research and I know what can or cannot be done with my symptoms.
I'm 45, and because of perimenopause I have dry eyes - so I can' wear contacts anymore. I'v gained weight so have lost the body that I once had, I have irregular periods (currently the period I'm in is lasting 12 days and counting not wanting to let up yet) absolutely no sex drive, occasionally HATE my husband (have posted in the divorce boards and couldn't remember doing it, but I guess I wanted to divorce him 2 weeks ago) I get heart palpitations that create so much anxiety that I take anxiety meds for it on occasion (panic attacks) I think I get hot flashes but not sure, theyre not obvious, and they don't bother me too much. I guess right now what's bothering me is the affect on my marriage, primarily how do I tell my still wanting to be sexually active husband that I really have no desire for sex and I can't have sex now anyways, because I am still bleeding like a teenage girl with her first period?
It's bad enough that I'v put on 30 pounds since he married me and have to wear my big thick glasses 24/7 but now I can barely even pretend to like sex? I think that's why I often think we should divorce, so that he can find someone better, ie-younger, but at the same time I really don't want to lose him and am scared to death (although next week I'm sure I will hate him again) of how this will affect my marriage.
it makes matters worse because he is younger than me, so really doesn't deserve to be having to go through this with me. I'm hiding most of my symptoms from him, but he can see the weight gain, big thick glasses and can probably tell that i have no sex drive compared to a few years ago. Most of the sex we have is "duty sex", but now I can't even do that with my period never ending.
just unhappy, need a shoulder to cry on. but wouldn't mind any tips on how to remain married through all this feeling unsexy, feeling old and ugly and having a period that just doesn't stop.