I just don't know anymore.
Alcohol is a family disease. We alcoholics spread it to our loved ones. You don't need to drink to catch it from us!
This is from http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/english.html
How do alcoholics affect families and friends?
Alcoholism is a family disease. The disease affects all those who have a relationship with a problem drinker. Those of us closest to the alcoholic suffer the most, and those who care the most can easily get caught up in the behavior of another person. We react to the alcoholic's behavior. We focus on them, what they do, where they are, how much they drink. We try to control their drinking for them. We take on the blame, guilt, and shame that really belong to the drinker. We can become as addicted to the alcoholic, as the alcoholic is to alcohol. We, too, can become ill.
You do know how strong you are don't you?
Thank you merri....you are strong as well....we all have strength in us...it sometimes takes something awful or hard to bring it OUT of us.
Have you done anything for yourself lately?
I could have written this exact same post!