The Rollercoaster Ride
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The Rollercoaster Ride
| Tue, 03-08-2011 - 12:28pm |
Gosh, I don't want to get on it.
I found an interesting author, Carole Bennett. I ordered her book "Reclaim Your Life: You and the Alcoholic/Addict"... I feel like it's time for me to delve into reading. anyone else read her work? I found some of her articles online today...
One in particular "The Pyramid of Change". Which talks about the 6 phases the alcoholic/addict goes thru and how this affects the loved one. I could relate to phase 1 and 2 as the suspicion phases where I started to wake up to what was happening. I had to did deep to find the other stages. The article was posted back in Oct 2009 (for anyone interested. sorry I don't have a link at this time)
Anyhow, I went on the rollercoaster with my exh 6 years ago. He was an alcoholic/ crack addict. Getting free was a miracle. I had to hit my bottom of exhaustion. That relationship ended up becoming violent too.
This time things are not exactly the same, but similar. Today, BF called a bunch of doctors to get on a true recovery plan. I also encouraged him to start going to NA meetings and I'll continue going to my Alanon meetings.
I'm kinda rambling but I find this board helpful in keeping my sanity, organizing my thoughts/feelings.
Suboxone is different in that is doesn't make him high and isn't progressive like cocaine/alcohol but until he is seeing a doctor, then everything about it is drug use and I can't live just status quo. I just can't... so I hope my strength builds and that I'll know how to get off the ride when the time comes.
Thanks for letting me share.
Lil Pepper
I found an interesting author, Carole Bennett. I ordered her book "Reclaim Your Life: You and the Alcoholic/Addict"... I feel like it's time for me to delve into reading. anyone else read her work? I found some of her articles online today...
One in particular "The Pyramid of Change". Which talks about the 6 phases the alcoholic/addict goes thru and how this affects the loved one. I could relate to phase 1 and 2 as the suspicion phases where I started to wake up to what was happening. I had to did deep to find the other stages. The article was posted back in Oct 2009 (for anyone interested. sorry I don't have a link at this time)
Anyhow, I went on the rollercoaster with my exh 6 years ago. He was an alcoholic/ crack addict. Getting free was a miracle. I had to hit my bottom of exhaustion. That relationship ended up becoming violent too.
This time things are not exactly the same, but similar. Today, BF called a bunch of doctors to get on a true recovery plan. I also encouraged him to start going to NA meetings and I'll continue going to my Alanon meetings.
I'm kinda rambling but I find this board helpful in keeping my sanity, organizing my thoughts/feelings.
Suboxone is different in that is doesn't make him high and isn't progressive like cocaine/alcohol but until he is seeing a doctor, then everything about it is drug use and I can't live just status quo. I just can't... so I hope my strength builds and that I'll know how to get off the ride when the time comes.
Thanks for letting me share.
Lil Pepper
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All the doctors are expensive but he has followed thru with the calls.
Yesterday (day 4 of detox) it seemed the worst had past.... So, I wondered why he still wants a prescription if he's made it past the worst of it. Like I said, I'm suspicious and I can't trust him. He didn't have an answe really. He still wants to get a legal script next Thursday after payday. I feel like he'll sell it back to friends like they sold it to him. But, one day at a time.
For myself, I called my EAP and called therapist fir ME. I feel like I'm about to go insane... with grief and who knows what else.
As for NA, he's not interested. As for a shrink, he's not interested. Seems he's only interested in getting his hands on what he thinks is the wonder recovery drug. Sigh. I feel discouraged.
Thanks for letting me share
Lil Pepper