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|Fri, 12-09-2011 - 10:59am|
I'm really kicking my own butt for picking cigs back up in October. Here it is 2 months later and I still haven't managed to successfully get back on that wagon. I had a good, smoke-free day on Wednesday. A couple of cravings but I didn't give in when I could have. Then my roommate picked me up from work and he'd just had a cig in his car so I smelled it. The craving hit strong and hard and I didn't even try to fight it.
So here I am smoking again and I hate it! I smoke so much and have trouble breathing. But I'm still doing it. What on earth is wrong with me?? I look at that pack of Marlboro's and I don't WANT them! But if they're there, I smoke them. I'm talking about it now and I want one. I just had one 20 minutes ago!! The control these little cancer sticks have on me is so ANNOYING!
That's my thought for the day. Anyone else struggling like I am?