Baby steps

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Registered: 11-04-1999
Baby steps
Sun, 04-29-2012 - 5:17am

I feel proud of myself this past week.    Went on a 3 day bus trip this past week.   Traveled with another widow friend of mine so was a test to see if we could hang out together that many hours and share a hotel room together.   First time for puppy in a kennel, and yes, I did worry on my 15 month old but it is highly recommended and when the ower said feel free to call and check up on her, I knew I made a good choice.  My friend did call on thursday and was able to text me that Rudi was doing good.  Which was a relief as the friend I was traveling with, years ago they had a dog that barked nonstop the whole time and was miserable and kennel told them next time: please sedate.

I have some shorter one day bus trips planned this year and maybe when 2013 comes do another longer one and same friend might go with me. 

I was dealing with a lot of anxiety before I went on this trip as worried on Rudi, leaving the house and how Beth and I would click together.  And the older I get my body doesn't function as well when it doesn't have a set pattern of food and drink but I survived and managed to laugh and enjoy the places the bus stopped.   I need to work on my patience on how slow people in their 70s and 80s get off and on the bus.

Wrote my therapist a thanks email as I don't see her for a few weeks and I think it is important to give her feedback so she knows if the rate she has gently pushed me along is right for us widows.

I am proud of myself, not to say I won't have set backs as I will.   No one deals with anxiety and depression since early teen years and doesn't have their weak times.  I wore my Mom's wedding band on a chain so I knew she was with me.  Mom loved to travel and a bus trip, she would be so happy for me.

thanks for listening,  Josie