Checking in

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Registered: 11-28-2003
Checking in
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Sat, 04-30-2011 - 2:53pm

t's been a while since I checked in...

I made it through my trip home with my Dad and sister for mom's visitation.

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In reply to: tiggrtch
Sat, 04-30-2011 - 8:11pm

I am so sorry Becky any of us have to go through this pain.

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In reply to: tiggrtch
Sun, 05-01-2011 - 12:07am
Hugs Becky! Glad you did have peace for the funeral. Its super hard. But you do need to allow yourself to grieve and not always be the tough guy. The grief will be there now or later, and I've heard the saying grieve now or later with interest and its true. The shower is a great place to let it out and no one to hear or bother you ;-). Do what you need to do to get through the extreme part of the grieving. I hope your therapist can help you through too. HUGS!

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Thank you Dedi and Kelly for my
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Registered: 03-20-2009
In reply to: tiggrtch
Sun, 05-01-2011 - 10:28am

Hey Becky,

I read your post and it reminded me of how badly I felt myself in the initial year following losing Luke.



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In reply to: tiggrtch
Sun, 05-01-2011 - 11:59am
Hi Promise,
That dam breaking is one thing I am so very afraid of. I can't fall to pieces...I don't have time. I have my 120 students, my own child, swim practice, soccer practice (for Ry), choir, the house, the husband...and yes, I agree it looks like I'm just making excuses for my fear and control issues.
My therapist? I truly love her...her words to me before I left (and the first time I'd seen her since November). She told me a couple times in the session were that she had lal these things she could say, but that session, I just needed to get things out...she just listened. This time, I don't know. I see her on Wednesday.

I definitely plan to come back. Here I can talk. The anonymity of the posting board actually helps me get more out than I would otherwise.
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In reply to: tiggrtch
Sun, 05-01-2011 - 12:47pm

Hey Becky,

I am happy you are OK with your therapist, I know sometimes they are good but not always a good match.