Feeling Sad and Lost

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-02-2008
Feeling Sad and Lost
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Thu, 03-21-2013 - 2:42pm

Hello everyone;

Last Sat. My best guy friend in the whole world passed away and it hurts like hell.... He sort of took the place of a boyfriend and my ego wasnt done

with that.. It is making me think of my own mortality as I am approaching 59 next month.. He was 58 and sick last year but I kept thinking he could have done things to get better but the was tired of being poor and this life on earth...but it doesnt make the pain go away..

I try so hard not to think about the future and some days I dont and then some days I do... I dont know so confused right now..

some of my metaphysical friends think we all have a time we die and its already written in the stars.. I dont know and that makes me depressed as there is alot to do on this planet and I dont like suffering or when people suffer..

I believe in God and all and the bible but maybe that is because that is what I was taught and it made sense to me more than any other thing I know .....

 

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Thu, 03-21-2013 - 5:11pm

~hugs~

I am so sorry Free...

<3

Lorie

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Nightangel
Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Thu, 03-21-2013 - 5:20pm

Having LOST so many friends in the past eight months I understand...

I am fifty-four turning fifty-five in July myself.

After my heart attack at 49 I faced my own mortality but last year I was so afraid of losing my dd.

ALREADY lost my Beloved Mom could not bear to loose her, she means everything the absolute world to me.

Her younger brother would have been heart-broken...

In the last eight months or so I have LOST six friends.

ONLY one was older than me...:(...

<3

Lorie

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Nightangel
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-02-2008
Thu, 03-21-2013 - 7:32pm

Thanks Lori

Gee that sucks when you lose that many people in a short amount of time.... You are strong and I am hoping and praying your DD is okay now....

All we can do is draw strength for whatever curve balls we are thrown......as the emotions go back and forth all day and night..

God Bless You Laurie

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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Sat, 03-23-2013 - 10:38pm

((freeatlast))

I am sorry.  Sending you a big cyber hug.  I wish I had the words to say to make you feel better.  I can say I am here and willing to listen anytime you want to talk or post.

 

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Sun, 03-24-2013 - 9:22pm

~hugs~

Thanks!...<3

She is doing so much better...:)...

It was so wonderful, she called me earlier today...

Sometimes we just have to hang in and hold on...

Lorie

I am here to anytime you need to talk...

Nightangel
Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Sun, 03-24-2013 - 9:28pm

~hugs~

Heidi you have been a Rock for me, just wanted to let you know that my friend...

<3

Lorie

Nightangel