My dad is going to pass soon.
HI, and sorry on all you are facing.
YES: IMHO on counseling now, it sounds like you need to make peace with your dad's drinking and childhood, I did therapy for the very same reason.
I am so sorry for everything you are going through. Yes, counseling can be really helpful so I would go for it. As I said to another boardie, we need to learn to cope with our loss of what we should have had in a relationship. You might find you also mourn the loss of not having the type of relationship with your father that yoy would have had if he had been different.
Only you can decide when is the best time for you to marry so if you feel a quiet
Thanks for the replies!
I so agree on the feeling out of control.
sometimes we do need to feel we can control something when everything else seems to be spiralling out of control.
thank you for sharing your story with us. I love to read other peoples insight into grieving. It gives hope, if you understand what I mean.