So much pain

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Registered: 11-04-1999
So much pain
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Sat, 12-18-2010 - 11:08am

I thought I knew what pain was, crappie childhood, even a suicide attempt at age 13, drank myself into oblivion in my 20s, then I meet the man of my dreams at age 29, and he dies in a truck accident Nov 16th.

I am in more pain than I can stand.

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Tue, 12-21-2010 - 4:09pm
Thanks Josie! HUGS!

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Thank you Dedi and Kelly for my
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Registered: 11-04-1999
Tue, 12-21-2010 - 4:36am
Thank you so much, and I just wrote that saying down in the front of my journal. Hugs to you and your baby! love, Josie
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Registered: 01-29-2008
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 9:22pm
Hugs Josie! sorry you are hurting.. This widowhood stuff isn't easy but you are doing good steps reaching out for support.. Just know as time goes on the pain isn't as gut wrenching, but it does still hurt. The quote I most love and agree with is "Always loved, Never Forgotten, Forever Missed". Think it sums it up even years out. We will always love them and have them in our heart no matter what happens. And it DOES hurt when people say we'll find someone else. My twin told me that at 8 weeks and I wish she was close so I could have slapped her! LOL

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Thank you Dedi and Kelly for my
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Registered: 08-07-2007
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 4:19pm
Oh good, it sounds like you & she have a good plan then. Yay for your church family stepping in and being so supportive!

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Mon, 12-20-2010 - 4:14pm
Thanks Amy. My therapist is out of state but we are calling each other twice a week until she comes back the second week in January. My church has a monthly grief support meeting, so that is helping too. And my church friends have been awesome, as well as my internet friends. Josie
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Mon, 12-20-2010 - 9:47am
(((Josie))) I hate that you're hurting so badly.

Were you able to schedule an appointment with your therapist or were you able to just really talk to him/her over the phone?

Josie, have you been able to find out about grief counseling or perhaps a support group in your area?

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Sun, 12-19-2010 - 11:09am

Josie, sweetie, I wish I had the answers for you. I read your post earlier and could not reply as I just felt so bad for you.