When did you notice your healing start?

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When did you notice your healing start?
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Thu, 04-07-2011 - 1:28pm

When did you notice the delicate start of any healing?



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Registered: 01-29-2008
Thu, 04-07-2011 - 10:15pm
I think the healing starts the moment we learn we just don't know it. The biggest one is when we stop hoping to die to be with them and feel ok about living. I think that is the hugest step in the process and comes at a variety of times.

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Sat, 04-09-2011 - 4:25pm

I remember going to bed each night and hoping I wasn't going to wake up in the morning.



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Sat, 04-09-2011 - 6:57pm
So true Promise! I remember going to James' grave and begging him to help take me out. That I needed to be with him. Then one day I asked him to help me live. WOW! Live?!?!?! That was such a turning point. I still hurt, but know there is a reason I didn't die and going forth now!

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Mon, 04-11-2011 - 1:19pm

Hey Katie,

Luke always used to say that we all come to the earth for a reason, we all have a special mission.



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Mon, 04-11-2011 - 7:58pm

I feel like I am repeating myself as I shared a few weeks ago on the 4 month date of his death that I decided to live.

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Mon, 04-11-2011 - 11:52pm
Luke sounds like a smart man.. no wonder you married him! ;-) I think part of your mission is here. I bet there are a lot of lives touched that you don't even know you've done. Such a kind soul with so much love and support to all on the boards. I bet many are still around because of you and you have kept them going.

That pesky depression does have a way to eat at us. There are times I still wish I was but its not daily/weekly like in the past. Thats a big step for me. Grief is some crazy powerful stuff.

Baby boy and I are doing good. He's growing and kicking and I'm just taking it in. Going to a friend's in Seattle this week to have her take my maternity pics, see her new baby, and meet up wit the guy that took over James' command position in the military. Should be an interesting visit! How are you doing?

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Mon, 04-11-2011 - 11:53pm
Hugs Josie! Those type of dreams really can mess with us, especially when so close to real life events. Don't feel bad if you hire out for the yard work, I do it. We had them since he was in treatment and I still have them now. They even do snow removal. With your foot and all might not be a bad idea even if just for a little bit so not so overwhelming for you. Maybe you can just do a little flower garden instead of the big yard? HUGS!

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Tue, 04-12-2011 - 6:01am
-Thanks Katie. I kidded my one friend I was helping the economy by spreading my money around. This puppy is taking all of my time and then some. Okay, so at times she is too spoiled. And I had that same thought on the ankle as although my yard isn't large it is hilly in spots and the repetititive 90 minutes to mow might aggravate it.
Your baby is going to be so lucky to have you as a Mom. love, Josie
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Tue, 04-12-2011 - 2:46pm

Hey Josie, being long winded is just fine.



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Tue, 04-12-2011 - 4:36pm

Trying to potty train puppy =

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