I'm so scared I have colorectal cancer

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-30-2007
I'm so scared I have colorectal cancer
9
Fri, 07-05-2013 - 1:11pm

I turned 50 and am scheduled for a colonoscopy and I am petrified.  When I was 24 years old a doctor I was working for found what he said was a "polyp."  He did a sigmoidoscopy and took a biopsy and it was benign.  This doctor used to do an upper and lower GI x-ray and gallbladder x-ray for anyone who complained of any kind of abdominal pain.  He also did an occult blood test and it was postive.  Yes, because I had just had a baby and I had hemorroids!!!  (In other words, he ordered too many unnecessary tests)   Fast forward to 1994.  I was having left sided abdominal pain.  A colonoscopy was done and nothing was found.  They did even mention this supposed "polyp."  I asked about it and they said it was a skin tag.  After having three children my hemorrhoids became severe and in 1998 I had surgery.  I asked the surgeon to do sigmoidoscopy because I was afraid the rectal pain might be something else besides the hemorroids.  It was done and again no mention of the supposed "polyp."   The doctors haven't been doing rectal exams on me, I don't know why, they just said since I had that colonoscopy that I didn't need it.  I should have insisted on it!  This new doctor I got did one and said she felt something in my rectum.  I told her I had hemorrhoids and about the "skin tag."  She had already before that told me since I turned 50 I should get a colonoscopy, and she didn't seem overly alarmed by whatever was in there.  I should have asked more, what did she feel?  I am scared to know!!!  Did this thing get bigger and turn cancerous?????   I have no symptoms that could be cancer, except the rectal pain, which I am still sure is from the hemorrhoids, because they came back.  I try to get more fiber in my diet and that helps.  When I use hemorroidal suppositories it helps so I think that is what the pain is from.  My colonoscopy is scheduled for August 2nd.  My husband just had gallbladder surgery and there were complications so he ended up taking 6 days off of work instead of 3 and he can't take off again for awhile.  I'm going to go crazy.  I just became a grandmother for the first time, I don't want to be sick and I don't want to die!  Please tell me I'm overreacting!!  Wouldn't I be having more symptoms/problems if this thing did turn cancerous????   I don't have any of the classic colon cancer symptoms.   I feel so stupid for not mentioning or reminding them of this thing.  But, no one told me to have period colonoscopies or anything like that because of whatever that thing is in there.  Am I dumb to have trusted them?  Have I been in denial??   I know people my age that have died of cancer.  I have seen some of my high school classmates in the obituaries.  But, no one close to me has died from it.  My dad died of lymphoma when I was a year old.  My sister had breast cancer but is 8 years cancer free.  I have my mammograms so I'm not too worried about it.  I just feel like since no one close to me has really battled or died from cancer, that I'm the one, I'm going to get it, and I'm going to die, and it's going to be colon cancer.  Please help me to not think like this! 

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-30-2007
Tue, 07-16-2013 - 11:02pm

Yeah, I don't really get why the dr. didn't listen to me about the hemorrhoids, but I was not aware there was a prescription treatment.  After I have my colonoscopy I will definitely ask about this!!  They cause me a great deal of pain and I do not want to have surgery again! 

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-25-2008
Tue, 07-16-2013 - 11:13am

I can definitely understand your concern. One thing to keep in mind is that colorectal cancer is very treatable if detected early so continue to stay up on your regular check ups.

Also, do you have a prescrition for your hemorrhoids? Mine gave me a foam that really helps.

Brenda

Community Leader
Registered: 07-26-1999
Mon, 07-15-2013 - 12:52pm
I've never been a big oatmeal fan at all, but I came across this recipe a while back and make it quite often now in the summer, its a great, no cook option for oatmeal. And you can always leave the chia seeds out: http://www.theyummylife.com/recipes/224/Raspberry+Vanilla+Refrigerator+Oatmeal
Photobucket
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-30-2007
Sat, 07-13-2013 - 8:20pm

Hi,

Well, as I said in the previous post, my doctor said it was a small nodule.  What I was imagining was way worse. 

Yes, I drink a lot of water.  I haven't noticed apples help that much, but I'll keep trying.  I've gone back to eating my "high fiber" Quaker oatmeal.  I stopped eating it when it warmed up, I think of oatmeal as a cold weather cereal, I guess.  The oatmeal seems to be helping.  Yeah, I looked up what foods are highest in fiber.  Most of them are yuck!!  I am a fussy eater, and I also am not fond of cooking, so it's a problem. 

Thanks for your response.

Community Leader
Registered: 07-26-1999
Fri, 07-12-2013 - 4:41pm

Do you drink plenty of water?  It also doesn't have to be just leafy greens to get your fiber, eating an apple a day with the skin on it, my ODD had severe constipation when she was little and that was what her doctor suggested and it made a definite difference.  If your hemorroids tend to be from constipation, you can put spinach/greens in with fruit for smoothies to help with fiber also, and avoid certain foods that actually "suck up" water in your stomach and digestive tract such as bananas, breads, rices.

I am sorry you are so stressed out about the polyps.  If your current doctor was that concerned over what she found, I am sure she would have sent you over for a colonoscopy much sooner. I would try and just relax until then.  Hugs! 

Photobucket
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-30-2007
Mon, 07-08-2013 - 9:03pm

Hi and thank you for the congratulations.  The little peanut is three months old today! 

I finally couldn't stand it anymore and I called my doctor.  What she found was a small nodule.  She said most likely nothing to worry about but should get the colonoscopy to make sure.  Well, I was going to do that any way.  I'm not going to be one of those people who waits until they're 55 and find out they're too late.  I'm still worried because of my history, but at least I'm not completely freaking out anymore.  (I got almost no sleep last night) I went on-line (sometimes a good thing, sometimes not) and found that nodules are pretty common in people over 40.  My husband also said his doctor said he had a rectal polyp (when he turned 50)  but nothing was found on his colonoscopy.  Oh, and the darn hemorrhoids!!  I'm really trying to get more fiber in my diet, but I'm not very fond of foods that are high in fiber.  Any ideas?  I eat high fiber oatmeal and it seems to help.  I'm currently using the hemorroidal suppositories.  I have to remember to use them several days in a row so that it helps more.  Problem is is that they act as a lubricant and so I need to be sure to be near a bathroom the next day, which can be a problem sometimes.  But, I do not want to have hemorrhoid surgery again.  That was so awful!!  You don't ever want that!  I had bad varicose veins and hemorroids after my three pregnancies.  I recently had the ones on my leg lasered.  A piece of cake compared to that hemorroidectomy!  Anyhow, I have pain in my rectum that seems deeper than it should be for hemorrhoids, but I remember back then it was that bad too.  I also have chronic back pain and arthritis in my spine, so I'm never sure if that has anything to do with it.  Once this colonoscopy is over, God willing, it is normal, I will ask my doctor about this pain if the hemorrhoid suppositories don't completely help.

Thanks for your reply and good luck to you!

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-23-2013
Mon, 07-08-2013 - 12:05pm

Hi there. I am so sorry you are doing through this and I completely understand your concern. I too suffer from horrible hemorrhoids and have been convinced from time to time that I have cancer. I have spoken to my doctor in depth over my concerns and she has given me other symptoms to be on the watch for. Of course I feel like I have them all but they are symptoms of other things. I am very thankful I have a good relationship with my doctor because it really helps!

 I do deal with IBS which of course makes my hemorrhoids flare up which gets me to panicking over cancer again so you aren't being stupid or paranoid. I think there are many of us out there dealing with this horrible situation.

Good luck and congrats on becoming a grandmother.

 

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-30-2007
Sat, 07-06-2013 - 9:43pm

I guess nobody goes on here.

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-30-2007
Fri, 07-05-2013 - 1:49pm

OMG!  Does anyone know if there's a way to keep your posting from appearing on the "main" message board?????   I don't want everyone reading it, just people that have been through cancer!!