The long haul
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|Sun, 02-09-2014 - 9:12am|
This 2nd round took longer to get over. Yesterday, I finally could eat and enjoy my food. I bought stupid stuff like cheese puffs and cake and McDonald's, but in the end, I threw it all away and ate grapes and a banana and oatmeal. My body hated all that crap even though I thought I wanted it. Today I wanted yogurt. Go figure.
I have mouth sores, but they aren't too bad. I read about the side effects and mouth sores are one of them. I felt angry when I read that people who have poor dental hygiene are more likely to get them. I DO NOT have poor dental hygiene. How dare whoever wrote that on the internet judge me. My dental hygienist can barely find any plaque to scrape off of my teeth when I go. She says I do everything right. Yet I have mouth sores. So what does that mean?
I couldn't work at all last week...too weak, too nauseated. I felt guilty that I couldn't make it to work. Today, I feel almost normal. Still have some neuropathy in my hands and feet, but my mind and overall sense of well being are much more normal. Yesterday, I was depressed and tired of trying to be strong and stay positive. Today, it feels easy.