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|Thu, 01-09-2014 - 12:45pm|
After meeting with my oncologist on Monday, I was overwhelmed and scared. Luckily, just I was getting home and pulling into my driveway, my sister called. I burst into tears when we started talking and she listened to me. Her sympathy was exactly what I needed at that moment and her perspective gave me a clearer view of my circumstances and my right to be afraid. The next day I went to see my therapist and discussed my fears, my diagnosis, the revelation about my sister's abuse at my father's hands, and when we were done, I felt better. Finally I called my mom to update her on my appointments/schedules for chemo and talking to her gave me a sense of security and hope.
I'm not scared anymore. I'm ready to face whatever comes. Had I done nothing, I would have almost certainly faced death at a relatively young age. I'm facing all of this head on and hopefully all will turn out well in the end. To be afraid all the time will accomplish nothing.