Less than a week until my appointment, feeling so alone

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Registered: 03-11-2012
Less than a week until my appointment, feeling so alone
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Sun, 03-11-2012 - 10:36pm

I have less than one week until my appointment for a surgical abortion.

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Registered: 08-04-2011

It sounds like you're feeling a lot like I was. I knew it wasn't my time, and while I felt like I was doing the right thing I felt a bit empty because I wasn't as upset as I would have thought. I had no one to talk to, I decided to keep it between me and my bf, and he didn't like talking about it, he still doesn't.

I understand experiences are different, but I didn't start feeling really emotional about it until the day of. I don't remember another time when i have cried so hard :( I don't think ill ever forget the emotional pain I felt as I felt my insides being vacuumed out.

I hope my experience doesn't make you any more nervous. Ive come to learn that theres nothing wrong with being emotionless about it.

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Registered: 07-16-2007

I think everyone copes differently. Some people feel a lot of emotions before. Some feel it after. Some feel nothing but relief. Some feel sadness. Some feel everything in between.

I knew it was the right decision for me, but it doesn't mean it was easy. The actual appointment was scary. I had it built up in my head to be this big horrible awful scary thing. There was such a stigma. I knew I'd also have to walk through/past protesters. It hurt, and the day went longer than I expected, but I lived through it. I remember thinking "This is nothing like I imagined!" It wasn't nearly what I thought it would be in my head. Still, that night I cried I think as a means of letting out my nerves and my emotions that I had kept inside before.

I'm sorry that you don't have more support people you can talk to. We're here for you.

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Registered: 07-16-2007

How are you doing?