Medical abortion tomorrow

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Registered: 12-16-2011
Medical abortion tomorrow
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Thu, 12-29-2011 - 9:07am
I went to my first appt at planed parenthood yesterday. I was only a day earlier than I thought. I'm now 8 w 2days. I cant believe it is here already. I am over 8 weeks and out of time.
Yesterday I heard the heartbeat and looked at the u/s. although she only showed me 4 a second. I also got a picture of the u/s and it's a horrible pic but I at least have it. It's not zoomed in at all and it's so little.
The u/s lady was so mean yesterday. She made me so uncomfortable and I wished she cld of been a little nice. But it's done and over now.
I'm so sad right now. I don't kno how to prepare myself for this. Yesterday there were so many girls there w me. Some of them went on about how much they hate the babies father. Here I am in so much love w/ mine. I feel like I'm destroying a talented little boy. I believe it's a boy. I wish so badly I cld bring this little one into the world. I just can't see how it wld work out.
I just needed to get all this out. I hope tomorrow goes fast and I can get in and out of there. The longer I'm at pphood the more i'll think.

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Registered: 05-30-2011
Fri, 12-30-2011 - 5:11pm

Came here looking for an update from you.

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Registered: 05-30-2011
Fri, 12-30-2011 - 5:12pm

Oops, I just realized you posted this yesterday.

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Registered: 12-16-2011
Fri, 12-30-2011 - 7:31pm

Well I took the pill.

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Registered: 05-30-2011
Fri, 12-30-2011 - 9:16pm

I'll check in with you tomorrow.

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Registered: 07-16-2007
Fri, 12-30-2011 - 9:33pm

I don't think it's denial - I think it's the reality of the situation sinking in. It's so east to judge and say "You shouldn't do that." But until you're in the situation and actually weighing the pros and cons for yourself, you never know how you will actually measure your morality versus the reality of the situation.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that one of the most odd parts of my own abortion was when my vehemently anti-abrtion best friend told me, "I figured you would have gotten an abortion a long time ago. It just makes so much sense for you." I was amazed. How can she be "anti-abortion" in principle but then tell me that it makes perfect sense for ME to do it?! Isn't that being hypocritical?

I'm glad you both have each other to talk to right now. It's so amazing to have someone to talk to. Take care of yourselves and don't let the people you will meet on your journey get you down. It's okay to feel relief, sad, and everything in between.

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Registered: 12-16-2011
Sat, 12-31-2011 - 10:37am

I can't thank you both enough for everything.

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Registered: 07-16-2007
Sat, 12-31-2011 - 4:30pm
Good luck! Heating pads and pain relievers are wonderful things.

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Registered: 05-30-2011
Mon, 01-02-2012 - 5:57pm

Thinking about you, boondock, and hoping you're doing ok!

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Registered: 12-16-2011
Tue, 01-03-2012 - 1:04pm

Hey beenthere!

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Registered: 05-30-2011
Tue, 01-03-2012 - 6:47pm

Oh wow....that sure is a lot to have had to deal with emotionally! Do you think your husband did that out of spite??

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