Good but also strange

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-02-2008
Good but also strange
Fri, 05-31-2013 - 4:03pm

There have been some workmen at my house for several days.  I've been fairly calm considering there are strange guys in my house and I'm basically alone with them while they are working.  They seem to be nice enough and I stay out of their way and they stay out of mine.   The strange part for me is that although I haven't really felt that I was unsafe, I realized that one of the places they were working they might have run into healing books or old victim's compensation statements.  Of course the statements were in a box, probably other under papers so not very visible  but for some reason the fact that they might think something had happened to me was more unsettling than having strange guys in the house anyway. 

On some level it feels a bit like progress that I can feel ok alone in the house with four strange guys and not be in a total panic that something bad will happen. But at the same time I feel so uneasy that they could find out about what happened by inferring it through books and such.  

This has just been on my mind and I wanted to talk about it.

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Sat, 06-08-2013 - 12:46am


I think it is a concern for you...

It is amazing you felt safe but wanted to protect yourself...Sometimes we aren't comfortable with others knowing, and I think we have many different reasons.

I find the more I talk about it the easier it gets and I don't feel the shame and guilt when it was a "Secret" so to speak...I feel Free!



iVillage Member
Registered: 06-02-2008
Sat, 06-08-2013 - 2:34pm

Thank you for responding. Did you attach something? I wasn't sure what that was all about so I didn't want to click on it if I wasn't supposed to.