my sexual abuse

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Registered: 01-21-2011
my sexual abuse
Sun, 02-13-2011 - 1:46am

when i was 34 years old i was in a crisis with a mental breakdown. during that very difficult time [ i had a number of things going on that was to much for me to deal with] i started having dreams of my father sexualy abusing me. i talk to my phyciatrist who told me that im having memories coming up. it was a long time but the dreams became memories and small pictures in my memory would come up and i finally new what had happen to me and it was making a lot of sence why having sex for me was not somthing i enjoyed. it started for sure when i was 5, but there is a possability it could have started when i was in the crib. i do remember in my crib rocking so hard i would move the crib from one side of the room to the other side of the room. i would hit my back very hard when i did this.

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Registered: 08-07-2007
Mon, 02-14-2011 - 10:07am
Wow... amazing how things changed once other family members started to remember things. I'm sorry that prior to that they accused you of lying, etc. It sounds like life was pretty rough for you as you were growing up and even early into your marriage. I'm glad things have worked out in your marriage and that things have improved so much.

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm sure that others here will find inspiration from your words.

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Registered: 10-10-2006
Tue, 02-15-2011 - 9:39pm

Hi my name is Brenda I am the cl here.

I'm sorry it took a few days for me to respond.