Is everyone ok?

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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Is everyone ok?
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Sun, 09-16-2012 - 11:09pm

If you are reading this, please take just a moment and check in and let us know if you are ok?

Thanks

 

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Sun, 09-16-2012 - 11:18pm

~hugs~

Hi Heidi!

Doing okay...how are you?

<3

Lorie

Nightangel
iVillage Member
Registered: 07-04-2008
Mon, 09-17-2012 - 11:20am

I am not doing so well today.  I have a lot going on...am a student at school, but cannot secure housing near campus.  I no longer have a job, and my car's transmission is going.  In addition to this, I just started therapy with a new social worker after leaving another practice where I had a bad experience.

I am having a hard time becuase I am living with the person responsible for sending me to work with a pedophile when I was a kid.  Years later, all of the tragic memories are popping up now that my primary survival issues are handled, and I am just hoping that tomorrow's visit with the mental care professional will help me.

I find it difficult to wake up each day.  I have anxiety attacks everyday when I wake up, and am waiting for a referral from the mental health professional so that I can go back to a psychiatrist. 

I see everyone around me graduating from school, getting their own place, and getting married.  It's very difficult for me to continue forging onward through this journey.

Any thoughts would be much appreciated.  If anyone has been in a similar situation, I would like to know how they mustered up the strength to travel through each day.  For almost every friend I have, they have distanced themselves from me due to my depression, and that's why I came here.  I am trying not to be codependent on anyone, but it's tough to keep friends that still want to go out with you/get you out of the house when you don't call them on the regular basis with positive news.

I have been calling hotlines, etc. but I seriously have been regressing, and it's tough to stay on the ball when you have absolutely no energy.

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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Mon, 09-17-2012 - 2:36pm

((sunshinelove))  what a awesome screen name, I love it!  I thought my sunset screen name was good, but I like yours better :smileyhappy:

Welcome to the board and thank you for sharing.  I hope you can get some support and understanding here. 

I want to quote something you wrote in your post:  "I would like to know how they mustered up the strength to travel through each day."  good question?!?!  I can tell you how I personally do it and hope others will post and tell you their experiences.

I do not have the energy either, like you mentioned.  I don't want to get out of bed, but somehow, someway, I just do it.  I have to force myself.  I have 2 children, so for me personally, that makes me get up.

There is a book on depression I read called, "Undoing Depression...."  by Richard O'Connor.  In the first 30 or so pages, I remember him explaining how people who have depression actaully have to force themself to get through each day (not his exact words, but something like that).  I read that and felt better because I wondered why I felt I was forcing myself to get up, to eat, to do everything I have to do each day, where everyone else I know does it fine with a smile.  Does that make sense?

It is sad to hear you lost friends because of your depression.  Made me think when I read what you wrote.  I don't call my friends with positive news.  I wonder if they are just, "putting up with me".  I don't know you and you don't know me, but I would be your friend and hang out if you did not call me with positive news.

I am not sure if I have helped, but maybe it is a start.  Please post again if you have more detailed questions or anything you don't understand or even what you want to know.

Sending you cyber hugs.  You are not alone!!

 

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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Mon, 09-17-2012 - 2:38pm

((Lorie))

I am also doing okay, thanks for asking :smileyhappy:

 

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Mon, 09-17-2012 - 6:06pm

~hugs~

I always think what a caring person you are...

Heidi, you have been such a Blessing!

<3

Lorie

Nightangel
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-02-2008
Tue, 09-18-2012 - 9:48am

I am okay.. My days are more filled with frustration now than depression... My computer gives me trouble all the time so its hard to post and be online .. I live with family which at times could be a blessing but I cant use the house phone and other things sis controls and the frustrating part is that I am always looking for ways out which seems like forever but nothing has come about yet.

On a positive note.. I am finding that me taking Vit.D and being outdoors more has really helped with the depression.. I also have found a new sense of me in which I can go out alone now and meet up with strangers and hang out.. It doesnt phase me in the least anymore to do things alone or go out alone.. There are times I dont like it but I am forcing myself out there. Its like that saying dr.phil says. Fake it till you make it...(lol)

I was also wondering about looking into a heat lamp for winter time.. but I have no idea if they are safe..because with the Vit.D and the sun and being outdoors it seems for me anyway that it has helped me 100 percent.

thank you

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Thu, 09-27-2012 - 7:23am

Hi Free,

It's good to get out, it helps me immensely.

I so sorry they way things are right now, but hopefully they will improve soon...:smileywink:...

At some of the Centres I go they have these lamps you can use if you have SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder)...

http://www.cmha.ca/mental-health/understanding-mental-illness/mood-disorders/seasonal-affective-disorder/

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/seasonal-affective-disorder/DS00195

http://northernlighttechnologies.com/

http://northernlighttechnologies.com/sad/about-season-affective-disorder

http://www.cbc.ca/news/background/mental-health/sad.html

Nightangel
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-02-2008
Thu, 09-27-2012 - 10:34am

wow thank you and I am going to read the links..

its so nice to have support when life goes up and down like a seesaw and I can read these nice posts..

Ever since the bad weather started I was feeling worse.. so am going to look into that sunlamp if I can... Maybe craigslist has one for cheap or free (lol).....................

 

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Sun, 10-07-2012 - 12:20pm

You are Welcome Free!

Nightangel