Feeling strongly suicidal

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-17-2003
Feeling strongly suicidal
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Tue, 05-21-2013 - 6:11pm

In the past year I've gone from taking two meds for depression and anxiety to six meds just to get through my work day. Still it wasn't enough. I put in my two weeks' notice at work. Now everyone at work treats me like an outcast. They barely say a word to me except for my supervisor, who told me I personally betrayed her by leaving. It's only been two days of ostracism, but having people I thought were my friends suddenly turn their backs on me has plunged me into such a dark place. I want to kill myself. I'm to the point where I don't want anyone to know because they might stop me. It hurts so much, and I just want the pain to end.

Angie

 

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Tue, 05-21-2013 - 10:35pm

~hugs~

Angie I am so sorry that you are feeling this way...<3...

Please call 911 if you are feeling in immediate danger...

I have Depression and know how hard it really is...:(...

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/suicide_prevention.htm

Lorie

Nightangel
Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Tue, 05-21-2013 - 10:38pm
Nightangel
Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Tue, 05-21-2013 - 10:50pm
Nightangel
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Registered: 10-10-2007
Wed, 05-22-2013 - 1:04am

angie,  sending you a big hug.  i am glad you shared with us so we can help.  it sounds like your job is the issue.  please know that no job nor any person is worth ending your life.  i am sure there is more to how your feeling but please please  nothing is worth ending it all. i can honestly tell you i understand and have been there too in feburary.  i lost my job of 12 years and a few days after it hit me, the thought of giving up strongly crossed my mind.  it hurt so bad and so many problems i am dealing with.  but you know whatm  something deep inside told me i cannot end my life and it took all the strength inside me to stand up, pull myself together and i forced myself to go do something positive to get my bad thoughts to go away.  i cried and cried, then found something to help me not think about how awful i felt and within a hour, i actual forgot i was upset.  now it was not easy, but found stength somehow inside.  does that make sensem  please fight these suicidal thoughts, you can find the strength.  you made it this far in life, so keep going.  i strongly belie tomorrow is a new day, a clean slate to keep pushing through.  will you try to give a new day a new hope.  be strong and dont give up.  by the way, i am typing from my cell phone and my periods, commas, and capitalization does not seem too work, so please excuse the grammer and one long paragraph.  you are not alone, we are here.  please fight to be strong and i hope to get a reply tomorrow.  i will be thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts for a new day.  love,  heidi