Wish I could leave and start over
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|Sat, 02-18-2012 - 8:17pm|
I wish I was not dependant on my fiance and I am not even sure what I am dependent on. I wish I could easily get up and leave, but I have no where to go and no one to help me. I am on disability and cannot support myself. I cannot even afford a room to rent. My life is so messed up and I feel I have such little control. I am lonely and I am angry. I am more angry over my body not being able to hold down a job and how I cannot take care of myself financially. I have been angry and irritable. My mind is always thinking of how I can get out of this mess, how can I leave and be on my own. I wish I could turn back time and make different choices, but I cannot, now I have to lay in the bed I made for myself, even though I did not know it would turn out this way. Oh well.....it is what it is.