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Avatar for sunset5000
Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
You are welcome to share .......
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Tue, 10-22-2013 - 3:00pm

If you are reading this board, if you feel comfortable, please share what is going on in your life.

I am here if anyone needs a ear. 


iVillage Member
Registered: 06-19-2005
Mon, 11-11-2013 - 9:59am

I have been depressed as long as I can remember.  I am, 48.  I have thought for over 20 years about ending my life.  The older I get, the more sense it makes to me.  Why is suicide wrong?

 Yes, i have a family, but I dont feel my absence would adversly effect their lives.  I feel like my life has been like a checkbook, to many withdrawals, not enough deposits.

 I do not have children, I think it is mostly because I did not want to take away this option by having them.... I have always said I will not do it while my father is alive, the only thing that has stopped me.  My life has been further complicated with a "step" family that is complicated and a grandbaby I have fallen in love with.  His mother wants nothing to do with him, I was 'abandoned' by mom at 12, so it is bringing up lots of things with me emotionally.  But it is complicated situation and at some point he may not be in my life

I do not have the money for therapy, again, the isssues are many, I have watched several people grow old, alone, the indignity, the helplessness, I have done the best I can, I am not afraid to die,  whose business is it?  I am ok with being called selfish, ( i do not believe i have been in my life, just alone)  A coward, ( ok, whatever)  Why is it not my choice?  If there is a God, if he deems be not worthy after evaluating my life, so be it.

I have been in therapy more times than I can count, more antidepressants than I can remember,  I am just tired of the way the world works, in a nut shell.  People hurting people, babies starving to death,  I just don't want to participate.

 I am not talking about today, or next week, I have several things I must get through first, but as an end of life option, why not?

Just a vaque question thrown out into the world wide web...

G

Avatar for cmkarla
Administrator
Registered: 01-03-2001
Tue, 11-12-2013 - 9:09pm

HI and welcome to the board. I think your question is one that has been debated throughout the ages. Some believe it is okay and others not. Each side has their own reasons and I think those reasons involve religion, ethics, and law.

You have brought up some very thought provoking points. I don't know that everyone would ever agree on any right answer for any of them.

Thank you for posting. I do hope you'll come back and chat with us. :-)

Karla
Community ModeratoriVillage.com

Avatar for sunset5000
Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Tue, 11-12-2013 - 10:49pm

Welcome to our board!

I agree, you brought up some very thought provoking questions. 

Hope other readers' will share their thoughts on this as well.

Come back anytime and post!!