Elizabeth's Pre-November Slow Start Journal
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|Mon, 10-15-2012 - 8:56pm|
Something has to change for me and after seeing Destiny's come back, I figured that I should get out of the dyk's and get back to what I know has worked for me in the past.
It's been well over a year since I've attempted keeping a journal...and it's been months since I've felt good about the way that I look. I hit an all-time low in March of this year, I felt great, looked great, and was so active. At that point not only was I tracking my food intake and staying close to SB (being a vegetarian that minimizes soy, I was generally over on grains and sometimes beans), but I was running a few times a week, taking a kettlebell class once a week, taking a boxing class once a week, and cardio queening it a few other days - I was in the gym 5 or 6 days a week and I felt fabulous. I had an active social life which, combined with the gym time, even though the my work stress levels were out of control I had a good handle on ME (granted, I was the furthest thing from happy Monday through Friday). Some crap happened at work, things continued to get worse, and I continued to get less and less happy...and I was beginning to put on some weight. I went on vacation and came back determined to be out the door in less than 6 weeks - I COULD NOT work there any more than 6 weeks, and that was pushing it. The stars aligned and I was literally handed the most amazing job opportunity that I took before I was even offered the job. Only problem was that the job was in New York and I lived in Boston. So, I packed up and moved...living in temporary housing for a month, moving into a (very small) apartment, getting acquinted with NYC and my new job, traveling out of state for races, and dealing with renting out my condo. All of that combined with trying to unpack (and I'm STILL not unpacked) and get organized (which I am NOT), I put on even more weight.
I have no idea how much weight I gained. A conservative estimate is 30 pounds, but it could very well be higher. I'm totally out of shape (I went back to my old boxing class a couple weeks ago and was quite embarrassed by my lack of abilities) and the pants that were loose on me a few months ago are tight...I'm very glad I didn't donate them because I refuse to buy new clothes.
So this is my long-winded jump back into journalling and getting back on track. I'm going to go slowly, getting back into following SB, exercising, and getting my head on straight (simply put, I do not <3 NY) is not going to change overnight.