Crossroads....in Life!!! (tried other board but no replies)
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|Tue, 09-02-2014 - 1:43pm|
I dont know how to explain much but lately feeling like I am stuck in the middle of life.. Me being 60 I cant seem to figure out where to go or what to do ? I must have written this before but since I turned 60 I am feeling more sad and depressed .. With no significant other and being alone for 5 years without a relationship is making me feel so down on myself. I do meet up groups and go out but lately not so much and I am feeling so aged out of things .... Same as so many other things...... I live with family and dont like it but when I try and move something comes up.. On limited funds and debt no one will rent me an apartment so I feel stuck.................plus I have no idea if I should go to a 55 and over in which I really cant afford those places as I live on small pension and taking savings out of a retirement account....for mostly everything I do or need......................No job at this time and I dont even know what I would do anymore... Was in travel and recreation but those jobs are gone and few and far between...............I became a housewife for ten years with only working part time and now been divorced for a very very long time.... and that part of my life is gone now........and been trying to fill in the gaps for years....
then I think well maybe move to where a job is or move to a cheaper area but I just cant seem to make the decision.. I know I would love to live in a nice garden apt. but cant afford it unless I want to drain savings and hope for the best in finding more income................Then I have to get furniture and everything else that comes with starting over..Low income housing there are waiting lists for years and you cant even put your name on the list until you are 62..............My friend keeps wanting me to move down South but I hesitate . Plus my son might have medical issues and wont see a doctor so I cry thinking he could have something serious ..but what can I do? He is an adult and I cant even help him because I feel hopeless and helpless........ I dont even have the motivation to find a friend or any type of motivation at all to do much..
I will be getting social security and if my ex passes away I inherit alot more money but cant wait on that?? LOL So do I depend on that???
So I guess I am at a crossroads as where to go, what to do , how to do it, etc.etc....who to do it with......
sorry I didnt mean for this to be a Debbie Downer post .. Just looking for insight and suggestions as to how people cope .........................