Need help in living better

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-17-2003
Need help in living better
Wed, 08-07-2013 - 3:21pm

 Not real sure where to post this..

  I'm 30, still a newlywed and recently just starting to wonder/question everything in my life and it's causing me so much anxiety I don't know what to do or where to go for help.

I just had my annual physical and was told my carbon dioxide level is low and I have metabolic acidosis- too much acid in the blood- which could be caused by my drinking. I was told to quit drinking for 2 weeks and go back to the doc.  I've managed to only go 24 full hours without a single drop and I was at a concert and miserable. Music is my outlet, where I feel calm and ok in my skin; I was awkward and shy and not into and it was my favorite person playing.  It's really made me look at myself head on and I hate what I see and feel.  

For as long as I can remember (probably started in college honestly) I drink 3-8 beers in a day about everyday. I stopped drinking liquor altogether, but beer, I enjoy and for me, it's my anxiety relief, but then if I'm at home- anger comes out as the number of drinks go up. I have stuffed so much down over the years. 

I have so much trouble with staying asleep and getting deep sleep & I am ALWAYS tired. I want to go running, go work out, but I have zero energy to even take our dog for a walk around the park. On top of that, I'm overweight which leads to I feel horribly ugly and unhealthy. 

I'd like lose this weight, cut the drinking way down, be able to do a 10k, get my cholesterol (it's 245) down and get my body clean of all this junk I'm sure is going through it so when and if (i'm so depressed I am re-thinking a family) we have children, I can start with a healthy body. 

I know my genetics which is full of depression, alcoholism, diabetes..I already suffer from the depression. I'm just staring at my truly unhealthy self and realizing, am I an alcoholic too?  

I've tried about every anti-depressant out there and I hate the thought of taking meds again..I've been reading the 'Diet Cure' by Julia Ross..she talks a lot about helping your body out with supplements and amino acids...I'd really like to clean house, so to say, naturally.

I'm just here to seek out guidance, resources..I'm trying to make Denver our home (originally from the south, being this far from family is extremely hard for me/ super close family)

 Would a nutritionist or holistic doctor be of help?  I just don't know what to do. 

 Thanks, Sarah

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Registered: 07-24-1997
Thu, 08-08-2013 - 1:36pm

I saw your post on the front page of the message boards.

I think the very first thing you need to do is accept that you are indeed an alcoholic.  3 drinks a night is a little over what would be considered healthy, but that alone wouldn't make you an alcoholic.  If - let's say - you were in the hospital and couldn't drink alcohol, or you were visiting friends who didn't drink, or you were at a concert and couldn't drink, and you could still be fine and not wish you had a drink, then you could consider yourself a moderately heavy drinker but not an alcoholic. 

However:  8 drinks in any given day is being a drunk every day.  Going to your favorite concert and being miserable because you're not drinking - that's being an alcoholic. 

Don't hate yourself because of it.  Many, many people incline towards alcoholism, and most families have a history of it, DH & I included (not us, but many people on both sides, including my FIL).  Don't hate yourself, but get help.  You will find that many other things that are wrong in your life have gone wrong because you are drinking.  

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Community Leader
Registered: 04-30-2000
Fri, 09-27-2013 - 10:18pm

Hi Sarah. How are things doing now? Any better? I want to suggest another board you might find helpful. The alcolhol and addictions board. The cl's on it will better be able to help you since it sounds as if alcohol is a large part of your life. They have been there.

Good luck and let me know how things are going...