Illness and anxiety
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| Mon, 03-04-2013 - 1:34pm |
I find it harder to keep my anxiety in check when I am ill. I find it is closer to the surface. I'm sure the meds that I am taking for the illness isn't doing my anxiety any good. I really just feel like biting off everyone's head, for no particular reason. I'm really fighting to keep my anxiety at bay.
I'm really afraid that if someone gives me a reason I will explode and that would be very very bad. First of all exploding means I have lost control and that would be bad. If I explode at my mother she would wipe the deck with me and then possibly throw us out since we live in her house. And believe me not a day goes by that I am not reminded of the fact that this is her house. I'm ever so grateful but she did say to me when I was young that this will always be my home.
Anyway I have been sick for over a month now and frankly I've had enough of being sick. I hope this ear infection goes away quickly and doesn't come back this time so I can go back to being my regular old self. Right now I feel like Grumpy.

Hi, Karen
I'm sorry you're not feeling well! I think it's normal to just have it UP TO HERE sometimes and want to vent on someone. I hope you feel better, but give yourself a break too!
Donna
(((HUGS))) I hope you are feeling better soon. Sounds like you've been worn down for a little while now.
Sure, when you feel off, you are going to have a little shorter fuse- don't beat yourself up over that or you might make it worse. The doctor whose theories I subscibe too also contends that being worn out, tired, exhausted, etc- anything that overly taxes you- is going to up anxiety levels.
Aw, Karen. I'm sorry you're not feeling well.
I'm the same way though. When I first developed a chronic condition it put me right back on anxiety meds. :(
Hope you feel better!!
Thanks everyone. I am feeling somewhat better but now I have been hit by a major allergy attack. That caused my asthma to flair up as well. I just feel like I cannot catch a break. I know my immune system is low low low. I've been doing all the right things to bring it up up up. I feel like I am getting close to being my old self again.
I held my tongue for a while but then poor dh got the brunt of my discontentment. He took it in stride though as he usually does.