Illness and anxiety

Avatar for nawleansdarlin
Community Leader
Registered: 12-27-1999
Illness and anxiety
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Mon, 03-04-2013 - 1:34pm

I find it harder to keep my anxiety in check when I am ill.  I find it is closer to the surface.  I'm sure the meds that I am taking for the illness isn't doing my anxiety any good.  I really just feel like biting off everyone's head, for no particular reason.  I'm really fighting to keep my anxiety at bay. 

I'm really afraid that if someone gives me a reason I will explode and that would be very very bad.  First of all exploding means I have lost control and that would be bad.  If I explode at my mother she would wipe the deck with me and then possibly throw us out since we live in her house.  And believe me not a day goes by that I am not reminded of the fact that this is her house.   I'm ever so grateful but she did say to me when I was young that this will always be my home. 

Anyway I have been sick for over a month now and frankly I've had enough of being sick.  I hope this ear infection goes away quickly and doesn't come back this time so I can go back to being my regular old self.  Right now I feel like Grumpy. 

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Avatar for cmdonnab
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Registered: 04-27-2000
Mon, 03-04-2013 - 4:18pm

Hi, Karen

I'm sorry you're not feeling well! I think it's normal to just have it UP TO HERE sometimes and want to vent on someone. I hope you feel better, but give yourself a break too!

Donna

 



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Registered: 10-12-1998
Wed, 03-06-2013 - 2:54pm

(((HUGS)))  I hope you are feeling better soon.  Sounds like you've been worn down for a little while now.

Sure, when you feel off, you are going to have a little shorter fuse- don't beat yourself up over that or you might make it worse.  The doctor whose theories I subscibe too also contends that being worn out, tired, exhausted, etc- anything that overly taxes you- is going to up anxiety levels.

Avatar for ubergeek
Community Leader
Registered: 09-23-2010
Thu, 03-07-2013 - 9:32am

Aw, Karen. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. 

I'm the same way though. When I first developed a chronic condition it put me right back on anxiety meds. :(

Hope you feel better!!

Avatar for nawleansdarlin
Community Leader
Registered: 12-27-1999
Wed, 03-13-2013 - 4:50pm

Thanks everyone.  I am feeling somewhat better but now I have been hit by a major allergy attack.  That caused my asthma to flair up as well.  I just feel like I cannot catch a break. I know my immune system is low low low.  I've been doing all the right things to bring it up up up.  I feel like I am getting close to being my old self again. 

I held my tongue for a while but then poor dh got the brunt of my discontentment.  He took it in stride though as he usually does. 

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