Illness and anxiety
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|Mon, 03-04-2013 - 1:34pm|
I find it harder to keep my anxiety in check when I am ill. I find it is closer to the surface. I'm sure the meds that I am taking for the illness isn't doing my anxiety any good. I really just feel like biting off everyone's head, for no particular reason. I'm really fighting to keep my anxiety at bay.
I'm really afraid that if someone gives me a reason I will explode and that would be very very bad. First of all exploding means I have lost control and that would be bad. If I explode at my mother she would wipe the deck with me and then possibly throw us out since we live in her house. And believe me not a day goes by that I am not reminded of the fact that this is her house. I'm ever so grateful but she did say to me when I was young that this will always be my home.
Anyway I have been sick for over a month now and frankly I've had enough of being sick. I hope this ear infection goes away quickly and doesn't come back this time so I can go back to being my regular old self. Right now I feel like Grumpy.