Introducing myself - Hi! Relapse of panic disorder
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|Wed, 08-08-2012 - 9:40am|
Hi, everyone! My name's Christine, I'm a 38-year-old mom to one teenage son (17), and I've been married to DH for almost six years. I'm experiencing a relapse of panic disorder, and decided to come here to receive and give support. And I used to co cl a divorce board here, too...YEARS ago
To make a long story short, a little over 10 years ago, I was diagnosed with panic disorder. For a period of time, I was practically housebound. I was able to get a few places, like the grocery store, my son's preschool, etc., but some days, I couldn't do much other than sit on the corner of the couch in a constant state of panic. After finding a medication that worked and going to therapy, after about six months, I started to feel much better and began a new job (I stayed there for 11 years).
Since I felt I recovered so well, I decided I wanted to go into mental health so I could help others. I did finish grad school for counseling a little over a year ago, but from the beginning, I wasn't sure if it was a good fit, because the work often triggered some anxious feelings for me and the pace of agency work is very intense.
Fast forward to today. I started developing some health problems (night sweats, fainting, heat intolerance) a coupld of months ago, right before I started a new job at an agency (I had only interned at an agency before). In addition to coping with these medical problems, I've been totally overwhelmed with my new job as a counselor in an agency, and started having panic attacks again.
So here I am! I'm out on medical leave right now, but as a new employee, it's unlikely I'll have a job to which I can go back. In a way, that might be a blessing, because it's just too much for me, but financially, unless I can keep collecting short-term disability for a while, it's going to be a bit of a mess.
Thankfully, DH is wonderful and very supportive.
Yep...a counselor with a mental health problem...who would have thought?
Anyway, I look forward to meeting all of you.