I don't know what is wrong with me and I need help.

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Registered: 07-09-2014
I don't know what is wrong with me and I need help.
Wed, 07-09-2014 - 9:56pm

I guess I just want to start out with how I am a really bad test taker. I just can't focus, I have to move, I sweat alot, and I just stress out. I also can't focus in class and I can't stand being bored in class. I recently self-harmed, I have about 200 cuts and some burns. I have moments of like ticks where I have to create or do something like write music, paint, melt plastic, create a store, write a book, etc but i later just don't find the energy to finish it and it just was an idea. When i feel this way I usaully jsut show i am happy when i am really sad and think about killing myself. I also have a fear of something. A constant fear for me is that someone can see through a mirror and see me or that someone is judging me. I constantly look at my surroundings and I have to have a friend near. What does this mean, where can I get help, and how do I do better in school and life?