Scared to Start Paxil
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|Tue, 01-01-2013 - 3:11am|
I was severely depressed about 7 years ago and was briefly on Paxil. I stopped taking it when my Mom told me my family could not afford $80 a month to be on happy pills. I have been getting more and more depressed and anxious over the past year and half, to the point that I barely leave the house. I have stopped working, lost my apartment and don't have health insurance.
I finally was able to see a psychiatrist on a state mental health program and she immediately prescribed me Paxil. I have had it for almost a week now and I can't make myself start taking it. I went from doctor to doctor complaining about physical symptoms for 8 months before one finally said it was depression and I should see a psychiatrist again due to my history; then the psychiatrist said I really needed to get the lab work done by a doctor to explain why I am still having physical pain.
I spent thousands of dollars last year having tests only to be told it was depression! I am so confused. I guess part of me is afraid it is something physical and if I take the Paxil it may "cover up" something else than may be going on, but I know I can't go on like this. The low-cost health clinic is not accepting any new patients so I have no hope of seeing a regular doctor any time soon becaue I cannot afford to start all over with $300 visits and costly lab work. All I have for the immediate future is this prescription in my hands and I just can't get myself to open the bottle.
I have thought about applying for Disability since it would be the only way for me to get Medicaid, but the psychiatrist told me since I "chose" to stop seeing my other doctors (because they were bleeding me dry with test after test only to say it was all in my head!), I would not have any hope of getting it anyway.
What should I do?