Depression really is so hard
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|Sun, 12-16-2012 - 7:31pm|
I've done tons of therapy with a number of good counselors, tried the meds (they either don't help AT ALL or I just get side effects as bad as the depression itself), exercise, use meditation CDs by the dozen, use any diversions I can come up with and there are plenty, I read a lot, relax in my whirlpool nightly, talk to friends and my husband a lot, use a journal online, try to eat right and thought losing tons of weight would help but not with depression, even completed a 10-day partial hospitalization program just last week designed to help learn new ways to cope with depression and the anxiety that tends to accompany it - didn't help that much, and I force myself out of the house as often as I can, although depression has turned me into a hermit - I just want to rush home to my hidey hole of a house. I've tried everything that's ever been suggested and plan to try acupuncture - didn't need advice to try that, I already know from experience acupuncture indeed can work. Despite all of this, the depression - clinical/major - persists and has gotten considerably worse this past year, I ended up in the ER a few weeks ago, which is what led to the partial program I did. The psychiatrist with that program recommended medical marijuana for another issue and said in addition it should "mellow me out", so far it's just kinda making me droopy, if that's what "mellow" means to him. My husband is checking on options for that and we shall see, but the main problem I'm trying it for is so miserable I have no choice, there are hardly any ways to treat it (stomach problem).
I just know lately this depression is feeling completely hopeless, and like I said in another post, you start to feel so alone with depression, even with support. I don't wish this on anybody but I know it's very common. Where are the new drugs for it? And for pain, which exacerbates depression? If depression and pain are SOOOOO common, and they are, where are the new drugs?