Do you think we ever totally recover from depression?

I think it depends on the reason for the depression. When I was diagnosed 4 or so years ago, it was because I'd had enough. I look back and see the depression hitting me as early as high school, but not serious triggers. However, when I lost my last pregnancy 4 years ago, it just snapped something in me. The meds worked for a while, but from that moment, I have never felt the same. There are days I feel great, but more often than not, those days are few and far between...even 3 med changes later. I've learned to cope, and hone up on my acting skills, but yes, every little thing could easily pull me back down the rabbit hole. LIke I said a few weeks ago, I am totally flying the white flag, in the sense that I need NOTHING MORE to go wrong.But, I also go through the phases where everything seems to be going wrong. Sometimes, my only "safe place" is when I'm hugging and snuggling my son. It sadly feels like a lot, that he's the only one who does love me unconditionally.

Okay, that was long.. to shortly answer, I do believe that I'm stuck fighting it for life. I've gotten "used to" this new normal...and whether I like, it or not, at least for now, I'm stuck with it.