Do you think we ever totally recover from depression?

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Do you think we ever totally recover from depression?
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Tue, 11-22-2011 - 10:32am

Do we? Or is it like ED, always there in the background, waiting to drag you down with it into some black hole.

I just want to feel normal again.

Promise



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Registered: 11-28-2003
I think it depends on the reason for the depression. When I was diagnosed 4 or so years ago, it was because I'd had enough. I look back and see the depression hitting me as early as high school, but not serious triggers. However, when I lost my last pregnancy 4 years ago, it just snapped something in me. The meds worked for a while, but from that moment, I have never felt the same. There are days I feel great, but more often than not, those days are few and far between...even 3 med changes later. I've learned to cope, and hone up on my acting skills, but yes, every little thing could easily pull me back down the rabbit hole. LIke I said a few weeks ago, I am totally flying the white flag, in the sense that I need NOTHING MORE to go wrong.But, I also go through the phases where everything seems to be going wrong. Sometimes, my only "safe place" is when I'm hugging and snuggling my son. It sadly feels like a lot, that he's the only one who does love me unconditionally.

Okay, that was long.. to shortly answer, I do believe that I'm stuck fighting it for life. I've gotten "used to" this new normal...and whether I like, it or not, at least for now, I'm stuck with it.
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Registered: 11-16-2011

I dont think we ever recover. I think we get used to it sometimes, but its always there, lurking like a demon.

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Registered: 10-10-2007

What a good question, Promise.

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Registered: 11-04-1999

Great question Promise and I agree with the others, I think it is like diabetes, it never goes away, you can manage it, you can cope with it, might cycle but at age 55 and having been told I have long standing depression from at least age 13, it will always be part of who I am.

Today I am so close to tears, totally strung out as my food addiction wants to go to the store and buy TONS of food and cram it in so the pain of losing my Mom and husband in 2010 will be pushed to the background as the hatred that I binged takes first place in my brain.

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Registered: 03-09-2006
I think that it's with me for life. Also think its in your genes. My dad and sister both suffer from it too. Mabe it might come and go and learn how to deal with better sometimes too
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Registered: 08-06-2009

No, I don't think we ever totally recover from depression, if it is chemical like I have.

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Registered: 08-06-2009

Josie, I am so sad that this season will be so painful for you.

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Registered: 11-04-1999
Thanks Deb but no one will be coming over. God knew my situation and "allowed" or whatever view you want to take - for my husband to die. No birth family nearby, step kids are with their real mom and I don't want to be the odd man out at other's Walton family holiday dinners. So puppy and I and the TV set it will be. Not sure what I am doing on food. thanks for caring, Josie
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Registered: 03-20-2009

Hey Josie,

~HUG~

love



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Registered: 03-20-2009

Guess I am stuck with it then.

How are you doing sweetie.

Love

Promise



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