Hello, and a rant.

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-04-2011
Hello, and a rant.
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Sun, 02-10-2013 - 6:06pm

Hi, I'm Rhae.  I'm 26, wife to a wonderful DH and mama to three wonderful boys, Monkey, Monster, and Mayhem.  Sorry to welcome myself here with a rant, but I just need to get this out.

I'm tired of being sick.  I'm tired of not being able to be a good mother to my kids and a good wife to my husband.  I'm tired of being in and out of hospital, and I'm tired of sleeping all the time, and I'm tired of never having fun, and I'm tired of accomplishing nothing.  I'm tired of sitting on the couch.  I'm tired of medication.  I'm just tired.

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Registered: 10-22-2001
Sun, 02-10-2013 - 6:21pm

~hugs~

Nightangel
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Registered: 10-10-2007
Sun, 02-10-2013 - 8:45pm

Welcome to the board!!  I am going to assume you have depression.  If I am wrong, please correct me.  I think we all know here how you feel.  I am a mom also.  I hear you.  But, may I please say, it is not your fault and I have seen you on iVillage and going to say I think you are a good wife and great mother!!  I know I don't know you, but depression is a struggle and we do the best we can in being a wife and mother.  I do understand what your are saying.  Please know that.  ((hug)).

Are you a stay at home mom?  I am.  I understand being tired and on the couch.  I tell myself, you need to go play with the kids.  I do, but I have felt the same way, like I am not a good wife or good mother.  But, I think we are, we just may have to try harder, do you think? 

It is more then ok to come here anytime and rant!!  We welcome you.

 

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Registered: 05-04-2011
Mon, 02-11-2013 - 6:10am

Thanks, ladies.

Heidi, I've seen you around, too.  Yes, I'm a SAHM, and yes, I have depression.  Reasonable assumption, all things considered.  ;)  I also have anxiety, and borderline personality disorder with episodes of psychosis.  Normally I do okay, but lately it's been a real struggle.  I just got home from three weeks in hospital after my lastest psychosis-induced overdose.  Sometimes living with myself is a pain in the butt...but I do know that it's not my fault.  One of the hopeful things I can usually remember.