Hi-just checking in

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Registered: 07-10-2012
Hi-just checking in
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Wed, 11-07-2012 - 8:58pm

Hi everyone,

Sorry I haven't been here for awhile. W/ my daughter's suicide attempt and the boards going wacko all at the same time I just haven't had the energy. I don't have much to say either. My sweet daughter is showing no perm. problems from overdosing, and doesn't seem to be struggling w/ SI anymore. Her depression is bad  and the anxiety is still a problem. She's been put in a special school, she really doesn't fit in, it's mostly for kids w/ behavior or criminal problems. It's interesting what the schools do w/ students w/ mental health issues; they put them w/ the bad kids. She's not sure if the school is depressing her more or her depression is just worse. I don't know anymore. All i can do is cry, work and fake like eveythings okay when she's around. I am not to leave her alone ever and she has so much anxiety about going anywhere we just stay home or go to dr. apts. On our way to an apt. last night I was remembering how we use to get in the car, crank the radio and sing together and laugh,and then when we'd pull into a parking lot we'd turn it down really fast and act all proper. I told her I missed having fun w/ her, she said "did we ever have fun I don't remember ever having fun". Thats life, I'm not sure how we got here but i wish we could get out. I wish alot of things

maya

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Thu, 11-08-2012 - 3:22pm

Hey Maya,

I am real sorry to hear how bad things have got for you.  Just doesn't seem fair that you and your DD should be dealing with all this crap. It breaks my heart when I see how people have to suffer.  I wish I had some way of helping you both.

Love

Promise



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Registered: 07-10-2012
Fri, 11-09-2012 - 12:37pm

Thank you Promise. I've made an appointment w/ her gen. doc to see if we can start looking at hormonal and other organic possiblities. I'm waiting to hear from some new pscyc.drs. I want to see other opinions. I've called our local NAMI office to try to find better support for her. Starting from the begining again w/ not much energy. I looked at taking $ out of my house to put her in a residentioal program but don't have enough even if I sold.

I'm  just trying to fight the hopeless feeling but it's hard.

Maya

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Registered: 10-10-2007
Sun, 11-25-2012 - 12:05am
Maya, I am hoping maybe things have became somewhat better with your daughter since you last posted? Any new help? How old is she again? I am also sorry this has occured for you and her. I am sending you some strength and love in hopes to help you both. Please let us know how you and her are doing. Love, Heidi