I can't do this anymore

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-10-2013
I can't do this anymore
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Fri, 08-23-2013 - 5:40am

I've had depression all of my adult life and it gets pretty bad sometimes.  Now is one of those times.  I just can't go on like this.  I've had to give my mother my gun (which I'd rather not have in the first place; I inherited it) and she's keeping an eye on my meds so I don't overdose.

I have no life right now.  I'm on disability for bipoar disorder and I only leave the house to shop... and that's only when I can't convince my mother to do it for me.  Because I'm on disability, my mother has to help me a lot financially.  She also helps take care of me.  I'm at the point in which I can do my daily necessities, but need help shopping, going to appointments, making important decisions, etc.

'm on Zyprexa, Prozac, Lamictal, and Klonopin, and nothing seems to be helping right now.  Is there another medication I should ask my shrink for?

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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Sat, 08-24-2013 - 2:03pm

I am glad you found us and shared on here.  I hope you find the support and help you are looking for here.

I am no doctor.  I can give you the names of some other medications I have either tried or heard of, if you would like.  I know I also take Prozac, and as you mentioned, it does not seem to help much with my depression.  I was given the medication for PMDD, even though it is a anti depressant.

Have you ever heard of Effexor XR, Wellbutrin, Abilify or Pristiq?  Just some medications I have taken myself in the past.

When do you go back to the psychiatrist?

Does anyone else on our board have any other suggestions?

Thanks for posting and please come back!

Community Leader
Registered: 05-04-2011
Sat, 08-24-2013 - 9:40pm

Welcome to the board!  I'm sorry you're having such a rough go of it.  As Heidi asked, when do you go back to the psychiatrist?  I think it's very, very important that you tell him that the medication you're on now isn't working for you.  There's no sense in continuing to take something that isn't effective, especially if there's something else out there that could work better.  I think it's best to trust a (knowledgeable) doc with what medications to take.  That said, if your doctor is not knowledgeable, go find a new one!  It's so, so important that you have a doctor who is really working for you, and not just writing a script to get you out of his hair (been there, done that).

I'm no doctor, but I can at least share with you what I've been on.  Currently I'm taking Paxil, Lamotrigine, Ritalin, and Abilify.  I've been on Prozac, Celexa, Zoloft, Effexor, and Wellbutrin for depression, that I can remember, as well as Ativan and Clonazepam for anxiety.  It took over eight years to find a combination of medications that worked for me.  I'm just glad I started young.

You say you have depression.  Do you have any other diagnoses or suspected diagnoses?  Sometimes treating those can improve the depression to some degree.  I know that when I started on a mood stabilizer (I have Borderline Personality Disorder, one symptom of which is rapidly cycling mood swings) my depression, while still present, was much easier to treat.

I hope that you find help and relief soon.  In the mean time, do come back and check in here.  We're pulling for you.

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-10-2013
Mon, 08-26-2013 - 5:22am

Thank you for your reply.  I saw my psychiatrist last week and go again tomorrow.  He put me on Zypexa, but I'm not seeing much difference so far.  I've tried all the meds you mentioned except Effexor.  I may ask him about that tomorrow.

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-10-2013
Mon, 08-26-2013 - 5:31am

I'm I'm still not doing well, though my shrink has added a new medication.  You ask if I had a diagnosis.  I'm bipolar and while I do get the racing thoughts and occasional hyperactivity (very rarely) associated with it, my biggest problem is depression.  I've posted on the bipolar board, too, to get insight, but since depression is dominant. I felt this may be the board I needed.

I think I trust my doctor, but I'm tired of trial-and-error.  He seems to know what he's doing, but I'm not sure he wants to treat my depression as much as I'd like because of my bipolar.  At this point, I don't care if I have a bit of an upswing; I welcome it!  I almost forget I have bipolar because the depression is so dominant.

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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Sun, 09-08-2013 - 3:37pm

I apologize for taking so long to respond to your last post.  Depression has had me in bed for days.  Today, I feel a little better.  For me, it comes and goes, almost every other week.  Is that how it affects you?  Or is it different then up and down each week?  I was diagnosed with major depression years ago, so please feel free to talk about being diagnosed with bipolar, if you are comfortable.  I understand you mentioned something about the depression being the current concern (not your exact words, what I think you were saying).  Correct me at any time if I am wrong :)

I hear you when you write about getting tired of trial and error with these medications.  I am still struggling with that!!  As I don't think the Prozac is helping my depression, I go back to the doctor in a few weeks and I have no clue what to "ask for or try next"  know what I mean?  Have you ever heard of Pristiq?

It has been a few days since you posted, are you feeling any better?

We are here for you and hoping you are doing better.

HUG