irritated

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Registered: 11-01-2009
irritated
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Wed, 10-26-2011 - 8:37am

The reason I came here is because I needed to vent buta lso someone that could or can possibly help me. Well the first thing is I'm very annoyed at my family, dont get me wrong, I love them and I dont mind living with them because my anxiety at times can be overwhelming, I cant afford to live on my own, I am very family orientated but also to help them out at the same time. There is a few things that bother me, they say we are a family and that we share things but I feel like I share more than them. Our family believes that we shouldnt have to ask to use something, but there is a few things that I would like someone to ask before using, that's my first irritant. the other irriitant is that I am going to school and I am taking a very hard math class and it seems like since my mom is having health issues and working a lot, I'm having to pick up the extra slack by cleaning and cooking, I know that I would have to do that on my own but there's a third party that lives here that can help to but it's like pulling teeth whenever I say I have homework to do. If I am tired or need a nap so I can get homework done, it seems like that's not allowed and i have to jump whenver soemone asks me to do something, Also my parents owe me money but their reasoning is because I'm not making enough to pay my bills so they are paying me back that way, and to me that's not right because it's not fair I'm not making very much. dont get me wrong, but I dont know what to do, and I'm afraid to bring up what's bothering me for the fact that it may start world war 3. Also when I moved down here I was under the impression we were going to d things but that's like pulling teeth too and I'm used to going out once a week i love my family but i'm just getting majorly stressed out. There are other things bothering me such as my weight, being tired all the time, not being able to really go out and do things or buy things, the fact that I live far from town to do anything but it's better to live where I live because of no crime, the fact taht I'm getting tired of being single., lack of hours, job issues, feeling like i'm not good enough, trying to learn how to like myself, my dad getting remarried, the way that the house looks, homework issues, trying to make friends adjusting to moving to another area and so on. I'm just to my limit, I have always been negative and depresessed but for once in my life I feel like i'm overcoming it but I start to think about this stuff. MY past is getting to me, the fact that I wish i would have done things different, the fact that I'm so busy i cant call my family when I used to be close to my grandma all the time. I dont know what to do can someone please help me? I love my family but i'm just maxxed out and I cant live on my own, dont make enough plus we have been close can someone give me ideas?

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Registered: 03-20-2009
In reply to: crys8227
Thu, 10-27-2011 - 10:30am

Hey,

I am sorry you feel so lost and confused right now. I understand that feeling for sure.