Is it really Depression?
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|Sat, 09-22-2012 - 9:38am|
Most of the little questionnaires I answer identify it that way. I do spend a lot of time crying, but I remember times when I contemplated and even planned suicide and this is not like that. I just have nothing to live for. I was a wife and mother now I'm not.....I'm a drone that works to live a life I'd rather be done with. Not really a life even. More just breathing in and out wasting space and air. And with really no expectation that anything but death will change that.
So all the 'advice' sections I see tell me to get exercise and sunshine. When I can drag myself out of bed for anything but work I do. I consider it a pretty big accomplishment that I'm still making it to work daily. I probably shouldn't. Most people make it to work daily and just consider it a daily occurrence not a major accomplishment. I am not completely sedentary and I have not completely isolated myself, but I am also not as social or active as I once was - no need to lie to myself or anyone else about it.
Where do you find a reason to get out of bed when you have none and really don't care? Where do you even start looking?