Just needing a friend

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Registered: 03-09-2004
Just needing a friend
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Thu, 10-03-2013 - 11:53am

I haven't been on IVillage since the changes. Was never able to log on. I miss all my IVillage peeps. But today I thought I would give it a try as I am feeling really down.  Let's see if I can get this to post.

So much going on in my life. I don't know where else to turn. Can't afford professional help, went the preacher route (which helped for awhile). My biggest issue is the death of my dad and all that has crumbled since then but many other issues before that. My marriage is just two people living together for convenience sake and has been for a very long time. Major financial issues. My beautiful daughter has medical issues and has since she was born. My very best friend, whom I met here on IVillage, took her own life and left me at a time when I needed someone the most, my dad passing away after caring for him for two years after finally repairing our relationship, dealing with my family falling apart since his passing and my mom is ill too and I am the one expected to care for her. I mentally can't do it anymore. Losing my dad and the loss that has brought has given me the most empty feeling. I've struggled with depression all my life. When my dh had a great job and insurance, I was able to get help, and boy did it ever help, but not anymore. I try to use the tools I learned then it seems life slaps me back down. I feel so lonely, down, lost, empty. And it is all taking a physical toll. I honestly don't know where else to turn, so I thought I would try here. I feel like I could write a book if I told you all every thing. But, first I am hoping this will post and testing this out.


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Mom to furangel, Chelse
Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Sun, 10-06-2013 - 10:06pm

~hugs~

<3

Hi,

I am sorry I didn't see your post sooner or I would have responded earlier.

I lost a friend this past year and it's been hard.

She was murdered, I still cannot believe it seems so surreal kwim?

My Mom died many years ago at Christmas my ds was a year old, he will be 24 this year...

Lots of things I have been trying to cope/deal with and it is so overwhelming.

My heart goes out to you...

If you feel like talking I am usually here lurking.

Depression is something I to am living with.

~hugs~

Nightangel
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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Mon, 10-07-2013 - 10:45pm

Welcome back to iVillage.  I am so glad you turned to our board and I hope you will find some understanding, cofort and support here.  I hope you do know that you are not alone!  I have had times when I just feel so alone and didn't know what to do, so I posted here.  I also have depression, I understand.

I am sorry your feeling alone, please keep posting.  I don't have the words to express how sad it must be to have made a best friend on iVillage, and now lost that person (big hug).  I hope you feel comfortable to come here and share.

I am sorry if I have not helped much.  I can tell you that I am here, I understand depressin and I care.

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Fri, 11-08-2013 - 6:45pm

Love this Heidi!

Nightangel
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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Tue, 11-12-2013 - 10:52pm

How are you doing?