Looking for someone to talk to

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-08-2012
Looking for someone to talk to
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Wed, 02-08-2012 - 3:44pm
Hello everyone,
I am new to this site and not really sure what to expect. I am 38 and married. I have five children and two grandchildren whom I adore. I work at home taking care of my grandmother, who's health is rapidly declining. And I'm at the end of my rope!
My oldest son has recently come home from rehab. He, his girlfriend and their two children have moved back in with us. It seems that with their arrival, I have become the primary caretaker of their children. On top of that I am no longer happy in my marriage and have told my husband so. He is devastated and the guilt of knowing that his hurt is because of me is debilitating! He is an amazing husband and father!
My oldest daughter (15) has now moved back in with her father (my children are from my first marriage) and refuses to acknowledge my existence because she doesn't agree with my decision to end my marriage.
My parents and siblings don't support my choice either. In fact, they spend more time with my husband then with me. I have been informed that he will still be welcome at family gatherings and holidays and if I am not comfortable with that, then I should not attend.
I'm beginning to feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am miserable and am having a hard time finding pleasure in anything. Including (I am so embarrassed to say!) my children. I leave home every chance I get, if only for a few minutes.
Has anyone felt the same way? Any advice on how to break out of this feeling?
Thanks,
Kim
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-20-2005
Thu, 02-09-2012 - 12:06am

Kim,

I sounds to me like your family needs to learn to support you in a lot of ways.

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Registered: 10-10-2007
Thu, 02-09-2012 - 12:23pm

Hi Kim :smileyhappy:

Welcome to iVillage!!!