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Tue, 01-10-2012 - 12:33pm

I have been having around the Getting Fit in your 40s board but I feel like some of my stuff isn't appropriate for that board so I thought I'd come over here. I have been going through some medication changes that have been messing with my anxiety something awful. And then came the depression in full swing again. I have quite the history but I really don't want to get into that. Suffice it to say that I've been at this about 35 years. In 2011, I spent all of about six weeks either inpatient, in partial hospital or day treatment. I've been out of partial about a month now and slowly things have gone downhill again. I've been so depressed I can't do anything. I try. I force myself to get some things done but I'm coming out of my skin the whole time. Fleeting self harm thoughts. I refuse to go inpatient. My med changes have really sparked claustrophobia and being inpatient will be too much to handle...been there, done that recently. I just called my psychologist and left her a message as requested but now I'm scared to call my case manager because she is going to start pushing an evaluation for inpatient the way it sounds.

I don't understand why I can't get through this. I even started a completely different antidepressant...Viibryd. It's brand new and supposedly works unlike any other. Sometimes it seems to do something for me but now it's been weeks since I've had even the slightest break.

And someone told me last week I should go back to partial. Again, one

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Registered: 10-10-2007
Tue, 01-10-2012 - 4:19pm

Welcome to the board, Nancy!

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Registered: 01-20-2005
Wed, 01-11-2012 - 10:23am

Hi Nancy,

I hope that you talked with your doctor and your pyschologist.