Still so depressed

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-17-2003
Still so depressed
Fri, 05-31-2013 - 4:40pm

My doctor had me make a list of all the meds I've been on, and it was awful. Something like 12 or 13, and none of them work for more than a few months at a time. Considering they all take a month to build up to the point where I feel relief, that's about two-three months where I'm not depressed and suicidal. I had to quit my very stressful job because I could no longer function at work. Now I don't know what to do. My ex-husband has the kids all the time because I can't cope with them right now. My ex-husband and my boyfriend are my only support. My parents don't call to see if I'm even still alive. They haven't offered to help me in the slightest, even though they live 30 minutes away. I've applied for disability, but this is the second time, and I'm sure they'll just turn me down again. I'm going to lose my apartment and be living out of my car by the end of next month. I don't know what to do anymore. :(



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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Sat, 06-01-2013 - 2:50am


Wow, I am finally loggedon and am able to reply to your post. Please know, I have been trying to get on and let you know that you are not alone! I hope we are beginning to show you that people out there do care. We may not be able to fix things, but I offer a shoulder to lean on.

Sending you a hug!

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Registered: 05-28-2013
Sat, 06-01-2013 - 3:31pm

Hey, Your not alone. Many people struggle with this, including myself. I just never no when I'll fall back into it. I wish I had a magic answer, but I don't. My relationship with God has helped me a lot over the years. Wishing you the best, you will be in my prayers! Wendy

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-02-2008
Sun, 06-02-2013 - 11:13am

I read this interesting study that antidepressants coupled with moderate exercise up to 40 minutes a day have been shown to help with even severe depression within a few weeks. Have you ever tried it?

I have been trying to walk each day and I think it makes me feel better somehow. Sticking with it is the hard part.

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-04-2011
Mon, 06-03-2013 - 4:34pm

Don't give up.  I tried different combinations of probably a dozen different meds, as well, before we found what worked well for me (which is a combination of lamotrigine, aripiprazole, lorazepam, ritalin, and paroxetine as well as vitamin D and iron supplements).  I also went through a dozen or so different therapists before I found one that I meshed well with; unfortunately I had to leave her when I turned 19 (aged out of Child and Youth Mental Health) and didn't find another good therapist until I was 27.  Anyway, my point is that it can take ages, sometimes, to find the right help, but you never know when that right help is just around the corner.  When I'm having a rough time, I just keep reminding myself that tomorrow might be The Day; and if tomorrow doesn't turn out to be The Day, well, maybe it will be the next tomorrow.  We can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel (and sometimes when we do, it turns out to be a train), but a tunnel by definition has an opening at the other end.  :)

Best wishes -- we're here for you.

Community Leader
Registered: 10-22-2001
Thu, 06-06-2013 - 6:01pm


My heart goes out to you Angie...