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|Fri, 01-13-2012 - 1:38pm|
Yes, still struggling. Although after about a half an hour, I had a fairly good session with my psychologist. I am very negative and I guess that is what's keeping me stuck, at least part way. I am going to try to work on my my workbooks more and maybe that will help.
I did call my psychiatrist's office and they gave me no advice than what I've already heard from my case manager. It was very frustrating. He is out of the office so if we can make changes in meds, I don't trust anyone but him to do it anyway. I've had too much trouble with other docs making med decisions and screwing me up.
I am at the point where I just want to give up. I am so tired of trying and tired of feeling this way with seemingly no way out. I keep getting asked if I need to go into the hospital and that is really the last thing on my list but part of me wonders. Although my psychologist said that all these things...partial, crisis beds, even hospital...they are all kind of like bandaids. I need to get to the source of what's going on, what's going on deep inside. Making some real progress.
I don't know what the right thing to do is. It's so hard just to exist.