STRUGGLING TO KEEP HEAD ABOVE WATER

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Registered: 06-30-2001
STRUGGLING TO KEEP HEAD ABOVE WATER
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Sun, 01-08-2012 - 12:43pm

Hello,

Where do I begin?

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Registered: 01-02-2008
Sun, 01-08-2012 - 1:04pm

When I read your post what jumped out at me was that you have been to hell and back and now you feel you want to give Up?

That sounds like you need a break or a rest because if what you had gone through was so hellish and you survived then you are doing better than you think you are??? What about taking a break for yourself

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Registered: 06-30-2001
Sun, 01-08-2012 - 5:51pm

Freeatlast....your message was the boost I needed. Yes!!! I have come a very long way and I have endured so much....and I'm still standing! I guess the change in my environment and starting over and having to learn a new city has me overwhelmed but we all go thru that. Change is hard....but we adjust, right?

Good idea on a support group, some free counseling. I will research that tonight. Taking a break isn't an option (no savings) although I have had 3 wks off w/no job. I've been worried so it's not very restful. I need to relax a bit and KNOW in my heart and w/my faith a job will come my way. I need to be using this time off to take care of myself. It has caught up to me a bit so the more rest I get the better. I have a car so i have to still make payments....I have been calling them but they said I have to miss a payment before they can help. Well, I missed the payment this past Saturday so I will be calling Monday to get some assistance.....deferment for a month or so or until I get a job.

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Registered: 01-02-2008
Sun, 01-08-2012 - 8:27pm

Hi and thanks

Yes; It is hard to start over . God knows how many times I started over when I left home.. I at first went to a hotel for a few weeks and then a whole other state and then back home and then another state .. So yeah; I know that feeling sista...but I am still here just like

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Registered: 01-20-2005
Sun, 01-08-2012 - 11:28pm

How on earth can you say that you are emotionally weak?

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Registered: 06-30-2001
Mon, 01-09-2012 - 11:09am

Thank you Tobylady!!!

Yes....that's is true, I'm just very tired. Sometimes so much it's hard to get out of bed. I do go thru feelings of excitement w/my clean slate and feeling scared. It's a process, I know. When I think about what I went thru it feels like it happened to someone else. It was so intense and crazy!

I know about feeling like a 3rd wheel. In fact, a lot of my married friends cut me off after the divorce. They didn't want a single woman hanging around. That's fine. I can make new friends and the friends that stuck by me are treasured.

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Registered: 06-30-2001
Mon, 01-09-2012 - 11:19am

Freatlast.....that Elton John song plays in my mind alot!! :-) I even posted it on my facebook page because it's my story. The ex....whew! I guess we all have our stories but I'd never thought I'd come across someone who would deceive me and be so cruel. It's over, though, and my energy needs to be directed towards my new life.

You have gone thru a lot too so I know you understand....and you're still standing as well :-)

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Registered: 01-02-2008
Mon, 01-09-2012 - 12:00pm

Wow;; You are being so proactive so cut yourelf some slack.. It sounds like you are stronger than you think you are. I know though like you I get bouts of depression and not feeling there is a way out.. I get that and

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Registered: 01-20-2005
Mon, 01-09-2012 - 12:00pm

You're welcome and good luck with the job search!!

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Registered: 01-02-2008
Mon, 01-09-2012 - 12:11pm

wow;; No jobs in Tenn. and I love that state.

OP said she was in NJ so there are def. more jobs there and she said she can find something in NY if need be.

I am in NY and having a hard time finding work.. Thank Goodness I have family to live with in these trying times although it takes its toll on me I am reading about homeless people and people who have no food..

Hoping that the Creator can get us all t hrough these trying times...

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Registered: 06-30-2001
Mon, 01-09-2012 - 11:08pm

Reading your posts makes me stronger!

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