in trouble

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-23-2013
in trouble
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Mon, 02-25-2013 - 4:39pm

Right now I'm in real bind because it seems like everything is falling on my shoulders. I'm worried about my ocd, I'm worried about a place to stay but rent is so expensive especially for one pereson. I'm not working right now because I'm on a disability due to my cousin abusing me. My credit stinks, I cant get anything on credit. I'm behind on my car which is not like me. I have lost interest in everything it seems like from working, to going out, to having friends, or even guys and most of all sex. I hate my weight but cant get motivated because everyone seems to be down on me right now, the only person supporting me is my mom and one of my guy friends josh.  Due to my cousins' abuse I have lost interest in life, shopping,everything. I want to go back to school but i cant because i owe money before i can go back. My anxiety is kicking in too, scared to be alone or do anything by myself which is also not like me. I'm not thinking like myself either which is scary. Every since my cousin abused me my whole life has turned upside down. I'm seeking help but I am trying to get better before my parents go up norh because i'm afraid to be alone and i'm afraid i wont be better by the time they leave, this is also scaring me. I'm down on myself too because i'm not like most 30 year olds. can anyone help me? i'm so overwhelmed.

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-20-2005
Mon, 02-25-2013 - 11:58pm

Hi,

I can almost hear the anxiety in your post.  I'm so sorry you having these problems.

First of all, are you in counseling?  Many clinics offer an income based or sliding scale fee so if you aren't, please check into that.  I think this would help tremendously, especially with the problems associated with abuse.

When it comes to your financial situation, possibly check out Dave Ramsey's web site.  He has some great tips to help.  He has a radio talk show that you can listen to the recordings on the web.  

Is it possible to move North with your parents?  I know this is probably not what you want to do but it sounds to me like you could their emotional support.  

I hope you are able to get a good night's rest and feel better tomorrow.

Lia

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-20-2005
Mon, 02-25-2013 - 11:58pm

Hi,

I can almost hear the anxiety in your post.  I'm so sorry you having these problems.

First of all, are you in counseling?  Many clinics offer an income based or sliding scale fee so if you aren't, please check into that.  I think this would help tremendously, especially with the problems associated with abuse.

When it comes to your financial situation, possibly check out Dave Ramsey's web site.  He has some great tips to help.  He has a radio talk show that you can listen to the recordings on the web.  

Is it possible to move North with your parents?  I know this is probably not what you want to do but it sounds to me like you could their emotional support.  

I hope you are able to get a good night's rest and feel better tomorrow.

Lia

Community Leader
Registered: 05-04-2011
Tue, 02-26-2013 - 4:29pm
*hugs* I definitely agree with Lia that you need to find some sort of counseling support. I'm no therapist, but what you're talking about sounds like some sort of post-traumatic stress. Not necessarily PTSD, but definitely something that needs to be sorted out. You've been through a bad experience and you have a lot on your plate, and a counselor can help you work through things and figure out how to get your life back on the track you want to be on. Not being like "most" 30 year olds is a dangerous label to have on yourself. What are "most" 30 year olds like? Everyone is different. You are you and nobody else, and nobody else is you. No one else has your unique gifts, or your unique personality. No one else can be you. Many people wouldn't be as strong as you, coping with what you've been through and are going through. Just because you're not what most people you know seem to be, but we rarely are on the inside what we appear to be on the outside. I hope things get better for you soon. Keep hanging on.

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Community Leader
Registered: 10-10-2007
Mon, 03-04-2013 - 1:41pm

Welcome to the board!  I am glad you found us and shared what is going on.

I agree with what the other 2 people wrote. 

I will wait and let you answer the questions they asked you.  Please know, you are NOT ALONE!!  There are several people on this board who understand and are here for you.  I hope you feel welcome here and will find some encouragement with all of us. 

Hugs sent your way