Anger and ED
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|Sun, 12-30-2012 - 11:14am|
I should have known something would go wrong and the ED would be ready to bust out full force again.
So, my bf is having some serious issues and it's directly affecting me now. He had been in treatment for drinking and had been sober for a bit. Well, that just blew up. I caught him drinking last weekend after he ignored my text messages and I decided to take a cab to his place to check up. At that point, he said he was gonna go back to an intensive program because he wasn't getting as much support as he felt he needed.Okay, well then christmas eve came around and, again, he ditched out on me until 1:00am. Then the final blow was the other night. I made the mistake of lending him my debit so he could get breakfast on the way to work. After work he neglected to show up. He said he had to do a couple things and would be over. He never showed up and when I checked my balance, he drained my entire account!!! So naturally I freaked out! He said he let a friend borrow money. Umm...yeah not his to do that with. I half believe him. Anyhow, he paid me back yesterday but that's hardly the point.
So I laid it out for him. It's his shady, sketch "friends" or us. He can't have both. I told him he could either get going on getting into mental health (he needs an evaluation and get back on meds) and back into intensive treatment or tell his son goodbye now.
I still can't believe he did that mess to me! He's done a lot of messed up stuff (haven't we all...) but this really did it for me. I know he's been working a ton and the hours are terrible. I know when he gets overtired, overworked he gets depressed and then the bad behavior starts. It's not like I don't get it. I have my own problems with that...obviously...
...as I sit here starving myself silly again. I'm so incredibly frustrated!!! I can't change what he does but you would think I could at least change what I do. I really just dunno how else to cope. Actually, I don't think I want to cope. :/ Anger really fuels the ED :(