Back again...:)

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Registered: 09-06-2007
Back again...:)
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Fri, 09-16-2011 - 8:24pm

I see a couple new names here?? :D Hello to you all! :D

Finally made it back home Wednesday night. Back to stress and stuff I'd rather not deal with :/

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Sat, 09-17-2011 - 10:38am

Hey Maryah,

ED really messes with our heads.

Promise



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Registered: 09-06-2007
Tue, 09-20-2011 - 11:09pm

Feel like I'm really losing my mind now. I'm a hot mess :/

Yeah alrite I finally got my weight back up to somewhat stable. Decided it'd be a good idea to workout. I thought that might make me feel better. It does, but it's that all or nothing thinkin again. If I don't workout 1 day I automatically think epic fail!!

I'm stuck in these obsessive thought patterns constantly. I had session with my therapist today and she had to slow me down a half dozen times. My head is a roaring racing mess!!

I'm still eating for the most part. Once again it feels as tho a raging beast within is being fed and brought to life. I'm very irrtable!! At the same time I just wish I could cry. I feel the tears somewhere but they don't come. Instead I'm just angry for no apparent reason. I'm a living breathing hate machine these days :/

I need to try and sleep. Haven't gotten much of that lately. All I can think about is I really need to workout better before I go to bed. I've gotta do better tomorrow or I can't eat anything...least that's what the ED says.No time to stop :/

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Registered: 03-20-2009
Wed, 09-21-2011 - 8:41am

We both need ED to shut up. She's destroying us.

Maryah, don't listen to her, we both need to get better and we can.

Promise